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SHOALPAW.
Guest
The waters look beautiful when the bright sun glistens upon it. Shoalpaw watches as the sun rises, and takes a deep breath. It's pretty, she likes to watch it when she can. See the world at dawn, when the new day is really born. It's especially common on sleepless nights where every little worry and insecurity she has threatens to bubble to the surface, to spill over. But she can't break down, not in the apprentice's den. She'd rather not wake anyone up. So instead, she holds it back.
It's hard though, sometimes. But she can't let them see how weak she is, how useless she is. And try and she might, nothing feels like enough and it makes her feel worse. Her mentor only praises her because they're her mentor, they want to feel like they've successfully taught her something. But Shoalpaw knows that she isn't good at things, no matter how hard she tries.
She takes a deep breath, watching the sun over the water. She wants to hit her paw against it, break through the reflection, just like she wants to break through and be better, but she can't. It's an impossible dream. She certainly hopes nobody will bother her, because she doesn't want to use her words, to lie to them to make them leave her be.
...Shoalpaw hadn't even noticed she was crying.
It's hard though, sometimes. But she can't let them see how weak she is, how useless she is. And try and she might, nothing feels like enough and it makes her feel worse. Her mentor only praises her because they're her mentor, they want to feel like they've successfully taught her something. But Shoalpaw knows that she isn't good at things, no matter how hard she tries.
She takes a deep breath, watching the sun over the water. She wants to hit her paw against it, break through the reflection, just like she wants to break through and be better, but she can't. It's an impossible dream. She certainly hopes nobody will bother her, because she doesn't want to use her words, to lie to them to make them leave her be.
...Shoalpaw hadn't even noticed she was crying.
"Speech"
THE WATER’S SURFACE IS IN TOTAL HARMONY