sweet hibiscus tea // sootstar

icebreath

i will do as i'm told
Dec 25, 2022
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TAGS The scent of the modest rabbit between her teeth and the feeling of its flesh against her tongue has her mouth watering. She's tired and hungry in the aftermath of her hunt, smelling of the earth as she slips out of a tunnel close to camp with the rest of her patrol close behind. Eager as she is to just get home, her pale gaze wanders here and there, spurred by nerves that stubbornly persist even after she determines that no enemy patrols are traversing the moors — as far as she can see, of course. Thank StarClan their territory is so bare; she'd go nuts living in a dense forest, where danger could lurk behind every bush. Uneasy as she tends to be in the aftermath of the SkyClan raid (as if her anxiety is anything new), she can at least take some comfort in knowing how easy it'd be for any of her clanmates to spot trespassers and book it home in no time flat to alert everyone else.

A strange feeling tugs at them when they catch sight of the graveyard in the distance. It's a solemn place that they rarely visit; she can never stay for too long without starting to panic a bit, thinking too hard about all the bodies beneath the ground. Their suffering, their dying breaths. At least they're living peacefully in StarClan now, watching over everyone and guiding their paths. It must be nice, eternal life. No pain, no anxiety, no wars to tear anyone apart. Still, Icepaw's content where she is. She's never been good with change.

Only after a few moments does she realize she's stopped walking. With a lash of their tail they tear their gaze away and continue onward to camp, ducking through the heather tunnel and slipping quietly into the hollow, trying to ignore their racing thoughts. They're about to deposit their catch on the fresh-kill pile when their attention is once again stolen away, this time by the familiar form of Sootstar relatively close by. Her belly is swollen with kits to-be; Icepaw can't imagine how weird and uncomfortable that must feel. Sootstar seems content with it, though, and always has. Which makes sense, they suppose, considering this is her second litter. What will these kits be like? Firepaw and Snailpaw will definitely be warriors by the time they're old enough to start training — imagining either of them mentoring such prestigious kits is laughable. No way they'd get picked. It's weird to imagine anyone her age or close to it mentoring anyone, though, including the warriors. Cats her age had seemed so big and mature when Icepaw was young, but she and all the others feel like nothing more than oversized children now.

That's especially so as she approaches her leader with a timid air about her, almost slinking along, ignoring her empty belly in favor of feeding those who need and deserve it more. "Hi," she mumbles through her catch, and then feels her cheeks flush with self-consciousness at how dumb she definitely sounded. Hastily she places it in front of Sootstar like an offering, bearing an almost appeasing expression on her wide-eyed face. She knows the older molly has no problem with them (or at least, she has no reason to suspect it), and in fact is still riding the high of being smiled at by her and being allowed to nestle up alongside her, but Icepaw doesn't think she'll ever not be intimidated by such a powerful cat. "Uh- for you, if you're hungry..."

@SOOTSTAR
 


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A greeting, it causes an ear to flick as she swerves her head. Green eyes often as they land on the figure of Icepaw, the silver and ivory apprentice always managed to bring such a smile to Sootstar’s face- for they reminded her of the brave and capable warriors being trained in WindClan. Despite all their loses, the leader still considered Icepaw to be a hero of battle, if it was not for the catmint they received many more would’ve died. It was impossible not to beam at the sight of her!

Oh, and to flatter her even further by offering her fresh-kill, blood still warm and all she guesses! A cheery smile she wears for sure, ”Oh, how generous of you Icepaw. The queens this clan has seen must’ve been finely sought after with you around. No wonder some do not wish to leave the nursery.” Sootstar meows, despite the upbeat words her tone is fairly monotone as she speaks them. Still, there is a smile on her face- though it decreases in strength so that her muscles don’t begin to ache.

The other apprentices should take note of Icepaw, she hopes past queens received the same amount of catering. To carry and bring kits into this world was a tiring, brutal task that very little understood. Sootstar still questions if it had been more difficult raising her son and child or leading WindClan, as she’s done both for an equal amount of time.

”Have the other queens and kits gotten their share? If so, why don’t you take a few bites?“ It might be leaving the totem pole order a bit- but who could argue with feeding Icepaw a little sooner? They’ve been doing such fine work, a reward was in order.

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( primary character / "speech" / ic opinions )

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╰ ★ ჻ 001 GENERAL INFORMATION ,
· SOOTSTAR, female — she / her
╰ ‣ 34 moons . pisces. ages on the first
╰ ‣ windclan leader . marsh-born . believes in starclan
╰ ‣ former soldier of the marsh group

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╰ ★ ჻ 002 VISUALS & AESTHETICS ,
· DOMESTIC FELINE, smells like heather and wet dirt , status — 100%
╰ ‣ blue smoke . scarred chest, difficult to see through fur . green eyes


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╰ ★ ჻ 003 MENTALITY & MANNERISMS ,
· ESTJ-A ❝ EXECTUTIVE ❞ , Slytherin, Lawful Evil
╰ ‣ Cunning, brash, fierce, confident, self-reliant, envious & selfish
╰ ‣ finds great difficulty in relating to others . can be cruel, usually shows mercy to those she can find sympathy with
╰ ‣ sole key to her heart is loyalty, if you have her trust, she often shows a completely different side of herself. Aggression tends to manifest from her extreme paranoia
╰ ‣ Appreciates titles such as "miss, m'am" etc

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╰ ★ ჻ 004 INTERACTIONS & RELATIONSHIPS ,
· SOOT CLAW x PEBBLE BREEZE, sister to Pebblenose
╰ ‣ heterosexual. mate to Weaselclaw
╰ ‣ mother to Windpaw & Sootpaw
╰ ‣ mentor to Smokepaw & Coyotepaw
╰ ‣ average fighter . skilled hunter .
╰ ‣ will start fights . unlikely to flee .
╰ ‣ attack in underline . penned by user @ava.
 
TAGS She watches intently after presenting Sootstar with the fresh-kill, searching her expression for any kind of judgment or otherwise negative reaction. Fortunately the smile that graces the regal molly's face provides some encouragement, easing Icepaw's nerves. She visibly relaxes in response, tense shoulders sinking as she releases the breath she'd been holding through her nostrils. And Sootstar's praise, monotonously delivered as it is, is icing on the cake! A smile of her own tugs at her lips, surprise widening her pale eyes — which quickly drop to the ground. She bashfully studies her shuffling paws, but it's clear that if she were less self-conscious she'd be just about bursting with excitement. As it is, though, she's struggling a bit to contain herself but does her best out of a desire to look mature. There's still a few moons to go before her warrior ceremony, but that's only because of her rank; she's still an adult, technically. (Yeah, right.)

"Thank you, Sootstar...! I try my best." And to think they'd almost been too nervous to approach her! She has to tell Rainpaw! ...But then she reconsiders whether her sister would even care, or appreciate hearing about it. Icepaw hasn't tried to dig much deeper regarding the other molly's feelings toward their leader since the apprentices' little discussion, afraid to rock the boat and invite further disagreement between the pair; even talking about the gathering had been a bit rough. Ugh, I hate this. But she does her best to push these troubling thoughts aside, unwilling to part with her good mood. It's already a bit weaker, though, tainted by anxiety. Ignore it. Ignore it.

That becomes much easier with Sootstar's invitation, which snaps her back to attention with a look of startled delight on her face. "Really? Th-thank you!" she chirps, whiskers quivering. "Someone else on my patrol already took care of the other queens." In her excited haste, that's added on almost as an afterthought. A reassurance. She deserves this. Sootstar herself offered! Even so, it still feels wrong as she tentatively crouches down to take a couple of bites, making sure they're small to ensure her leader can eat as much as possible; she and her kits need it more. It's not even something she thinks too hard about, though, acting reflexively.

Still looking pleased, she leans back and wonders if she should leave now. What she wants is to stick around and try chatting, but even with her peers that tends to be a challenge for her, and she has no idea if Sootstar's apparent liking for her extends that far. But what if Sootstar would like if she stayed, and walking away comes off as rude? With a pounding heart, they stay rooted in place — though it's more out of anxiety than a firm decision. "How've you been lately?" she ultimately ventures.
 
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//tw tbh for the 4th paragraph where she wishes brief descriptive death on certain enemies (chill Out FHBDHF) feel free to skip!!

Content by Icepaw’s confirmation that the queens and kits have been fed she grows pleased when they kneel and take a few bites for themselves. Sootstar would’ve had it no other way, hardworking apprentices deserved to be rewarded.

Sootstar takes several of her own bites, she eats with delicacy but still bloodies her maw. She is still licking off red when the apprentice asks about how she has been. Oh… marvelous, so well-mannered. It is hard to imagine how a cat mentored by a feline who could not contain her own spit carried this much poise… Truly she had thought to praise Icepaw’s mentor for her apprentice’s behavior, but she is certain Nightmareface is not to thank.

”I am okay.” Sootstar meows, shoulders giving of a light bounce. Despite being pleased at the ask she is not the type to emotionally confide, often not even to her own mate. It was a mixture of being emotionally distant by nature, and not knowing how much of the truth she could reveal without being perceived weak. Of course she was not “okay”, she was stressed beyond words. The alliance between SkyClan and RiverClan always taunted at the back of her mind, she hates these clans and she hates that they think they have any power over her. That they do.

Sootstar hates them both something fierce. Blazestar, Cicadastar, Hyacinthbreath, Yewberry, Galeforce… Dandelionwish! She wishes to see their heads pierced with gorse thorns.

She smiles. ”…Yes. I am just fine. And what about yourself?”

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( primary character / "speech" / ic opinions )

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╰ ★ ჻ 001 GENERAL INFORMATION ,
· SOOTSTAR, female — she / her
╰ ‣ 34 moons . pisces. ages on the first
╰ ‣ windclan leader . marsh-born . believes in starclan
╰ ‣ former soldier of the marsh group

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╰ ★ ჻ 002 VISUALS & AESTHETICS ,
· DOMESTIC FELINE, smells like heather and wet dirt , status — 100%
╰ ‣ blue smoke . scarred chest, difficult to see through fur . green eyes


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╰ ★ ჻ 003 MENTALITY & MANNERISMS ,
· ESTJ-A ❝ EXECTUTIVE ❞ , Slytherin, Lawful Evil
╰ ‣ Cunning, brash, fierce, confident, self-reliant, envious & selfish
╰ ‣ finds great difficulty in relating to others . can be cruel, usually shows mercy to those she can find sympathy with
╰ ‣ sole key to her heart is loyalty, if you have her trust, she often shows a completely different side of herself. Aggression tends to manifest from her extreme paranoia
╰ ‣ Appreciates titles such as "miss, m'am" etc

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╰ ★ ჻ 004 INTERACTIONS & RELATIONSHIPS ,
· SOOT CLAW x PEBBLE BREEZE, sister to Pebblenose
╰ ‣ heterosexual. mate to Weaselclaw
╰ ‣ mother to Windpaw & Sootpaw
╰ ‣ mentor to Smokepaw & Coyotepaw
╰ ‣ average fighter . skilled hunter .
╰ ‣ will start fights . unlikely to flee .
╰ ‣ attack in underline . penned by user @ava.
 
TAGS 'Okay' is a fairly neutral assessment, but Icepaw finds it impressive nonetheless; it's a million times better than how she'd be feeling in Sootstar's place. Between the epidemic, the raid, the alliance, the treachery, the... everything, she'd probably have to step down from leadership due to a nervous breakdown. She admires the blue smoke for many reasons, especially her ability to remain so collected and in control despite everything that's happening. Her own sleep is so disturbed by nightmares lately, her waking hours underscored by anxiety, fueled by paranoia as she waits for the enemy invasion she just knows will inevitably happen. Or the next fallen, treacherous clanmate to reveal themselves. Or the next cat to be lost to blackcough. Or-

Sootstar's question forces her away from her spiraling thoughts, thankfully. They don't know why it surprises them; this is a conversation, after all, and it's very normal to return that question. Expected, even. It just... feels so funny to be in this position, casually chatting and sharing a meal with Sootstar. And Smokepaw gets to do it every day! Well, just the talking, but that's besides the point. He's so lucky to be her apprentice. But also, it'd probably be so stressful; Icepaw can so easily imagine how intense her performance anxiety would be during training sessions. What's she like as a mentor? Probably stern. But so experienced, with so much wisdom to pass down. Definitely so different from Nightmareface's style, they imagine. In a good way? Well, they don't dislike her training (they think), but... well, it speaks for itself. How could anyone top the queen of the moors, WindClan's founder?

"Oh, I've been good, thank you," they say with a smile. It's not true, of course, but she wouldn't want to make this about herself, nor does she have any desire to appear as spineless as she knows she is. Talking about her problems out of nowhere feels inappropriate, anyway. A pause ensues when she realizes she has no idea what else to say. Right, she's not good at this stuff. Why did she think it'd be any easier with someone she feels so nervous around? After a few moments of grasping at straws, she's struck with inspiration as the memory of the graveyard pops into her head. "Um- Sootstar? Sorry, I hope this isn't weird, but the raid got me thinking about... stuff, I guess, and I was wondering... what the Great Battle was like?" She was only a kit when the historical event occurred, uninvolved and too young to recall anything from so long ago. Thank goodness. Being assigned to participate in something as (conceptually) non-confrontational as a stealth mission had terrified her to no end; she can't even imagine how she'd fare in something as intense as this.
 


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Sootstar lowers her head for another bite as Icepaw reports they are well. Hardly does the blue smoke think to press for a more in-depth answer, she was a woman who spoke little about her own state to others, she judges not that Icepaw chose few words to answer with.

A heavy silence hangs over them for a few minutes, Sootstar is hardly bothered by this as Icepaw silently does her best to conjure up something to say. Chewing noises from the leader is all that can be heard until the apprentice wearily begins and inquiry. The Great Battle. Blood roars in her ears in remembrance of that day, it feels like so long ago now. It had been a bloody battle, she had even killed a cat younger than Icepaw herself during it. It was the sacrifice of those cats that had caused the clans being formed, the dead had approved her as WindClan's leader and given her nine lives. Even Marigold, the cat she had slain, himself.

"I am glad you are interested; it is important to learn about the roots of WindClan." It was precisely what the Great Battle was, it had planted the seed inside Sootstar's head to set out and create this clan. "The Great Battle was long and bloody. We fought from sunhigh to sundown, many fell on the battlefield, I had never laid eyes on more dead in my life." It's grim, but Icepaw had asked, the leader wouldn't shield her from the gruesome truth. "We would've gone on until all of us were dead I'm certain if not for StarClan's intervention. I had been fighting Honeytwist, actually, at the time when the spirits of the fallen appeared before our eyes. They called themselves StarClan and demanded that we halt the bloodshed. They told us that we must grow and spread like the creeper vine, and in a heartbeat I heeded their wisdom. Just several moonrises later I created WindClan and we made home on the hills." There lays a subtle warmth in her eyes as she reminices silently about the few first days they had spent here. What a small group they had once been, but so very full of traitors and weaklings.

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( primary character / "speech" / ic opinions )

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╰ ★ ჻ 001 GENERAL INFORMATION ,
· SOOTSTAR, female — she / her
╰ ‣ 34 moons . pisces. ages on the first
╰ ‣ windclan leader . marsh-born . believes in starclan
╰ ‣ former soldier of the marsh group

57376371_qgIErNkkmbCZArJ_3.png
╰ ★ ჻ 002 VISUALS & AESTHETICS ,
· DOMESTIC FELINE, smells like heather and wet dirt , status — 100%
╰ ‣ blue smoke . scarred chest, difficult to see through fur . green eyes


57376371_qgIErNkkmbCZArJ_4.png
╰ ★ ჻ 003 MENTALITY & MANNERISMS ,
· ESTJ-A ❝ EXECTUTIVE ❞ , Slytherin, Lawful Evil
╰ ‣ Cunning, brash, fierce, confident, self-reliant, envious & selfish
╰ ‣ finds great difficulty in relating to others . can be cruel, usually shows mercy to those she can find sympathy with
╰ ‣ sole key to her heart is loyalty, if you have her trust, she often shows a completely different side of herself. Aggression tends to manifest from her extreme paranoia
╰ ‣ Appreciates titles such as "miss, m'am" etc

57376371_qgIErNkkmbCZArJ_5.png
╰ ★ ჻ 004 INTERACTIONS & RELATIONSHIPS ,
· SOOT CLAW x PEBBLE BREEZE, sister to Pebblenose
╰ ‣ heterosexual. mate to Weaselclaw
╰ ‣ mother to Windpaw & Sootpaw
╰ ‣ mentor to Smokepaw & Coyotepaw
╰ ‣ average fighter . skilled hunter .
╰ ‣ will start fights . unlikely to flee .
╰ ‣ attack in underline . penned by user @ava.