- Aug 17, 2022
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Snowpaw was not a quiet cat because he was shy, he wasn't even that quiet really but he did have a tendency to not speak at lengths when he was thinking things over. He had been alarmingly silent today, uncertain and at odds with himself. A part of him was still bitterly annoyed at being so blatantly attacked in camp, another part of him acknowledged that all cats had their limits and it was his own fault Coyotepaw had been pushed to his; but he stubbornly clenched his jaw because it was easy to feel bad for the other apprentice's dying mother with her nonjudgemental gaze but her stern words. He was struggling to give that same sympathy to the other tom, he knew he was wrong now and he knew he owed an apology but he clung desperately to his small sense of pride despite it. Life would be easier if he was a bird like he was in his dreams, he wondered if he could reclaim that sensation of flying like he did before when he dove for the hawk that grabbed Burnkit, but he also knew he'd gotten lucky. A fall that high would kill a cat normally. Snowpaw gave a huff where he lay at the edge of the apprentice den, the white flower between his paws looking out of place on the cold ground. He wondered if it was a daisy, flowers were so strange sometimes and hard to tell when they mostly looked alike. The blue tom wondered why his mother had such a delicate sounding name when she was anything but. The deputy was strong, capable, his golden gaze glazed over with indifference as his breath shook the white petals. Feelings were stupid. He was tired of feeling.
The talk with Leopardcloud left him feeling strangely exposed and he wanted to burrow back into his nest and sleep but he had to go and fetch moss soon, clean the nursery...other fun and exciting punishments for his brawl with Coyotepaw. Maybe he was still sore he hadn't gotten to get a good lick in before it was broken up.
@~Deersong~