- Jul 6, 2023
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The familiarity with which they carry themself across pebbled alleys, sun-warmed road and pine-needle litter should feel like freedom. Months had been spent trapped in a cage of their own creation, one wrought of iron and youthful folly... Despite the doubts that had gnawed at their belly and the exhausted nights spent wondering, they couldn't say they felt regret. It was for the best, they told themself, that it had been kept buried in secrecy and half-truths, that they should shoulder the burden of lies strung into knots all converging on one thoughtless choice. They know that confession will see them painted in shades of furious red, in greens of disgust... in the blue tears of betrayal they hadn't intended. No one was safe from those feelings... not even Spicepaw.
The pocket of comfortable dens and sap-fragranced pelts makes itself a shining beacon on the horizon far sooner than they expect it to... had their paws been so hungry to return? Trepidation slows their gait suddenly, anxiety clutching at their throat and threatening to squeeze all air from their lungs. A whirlwind of thoughts screams of rejection, of pointed glares and suspicion... What hope for a happy reunion that had spurred their decisions becoming rotted with fear in an instant.
Was it possible that someone had already plucked apart the vague excuse of their illness and surmised the truth, waiting until this exact moment to rear their head with malicious delight? There were plenty amongst SkyClan that did not favor kittypets... that might take pleasure in marking another one unfaithful... unreliable... They hesitate, withdrawing their paw and thinking to turn back, to rush after soot-dusted fur and appeal to another option... another path.
But countless days of sleeplessness spent fraught with apprehension return in ruthless memory. How many times had they begged for a moment of quiet... a day spent amongst the trees listening to birdsong? A sunrise spent without tiny claws pricking at the soft spots of their underbelly and warming them uncomfortably in their nest? They'd dreamed of it... Wondered after how the time spent with friends might've been instead. All the while pleading with some unseen force to make a good parent out of them over night... to steal away the deep well of tired that permeated all layers of their being... to give them identity again outside of 'mother' to two tiny mirrors.
They thought eventually it would all go back to normal.... and now it would. Now it would have to.
Edenberry couldn't avoid it any longer... in the moments of uneasiness, cats had already begun to filter in and out of camp for the morning. They've been seen, been recognized and though they know the warrior that left might've offered a cheerful, shining greeting, their confidence abandons them to a nervous smile and tired eyes.
The pocket of comfortable dens and sap-fragranced pelts makes itself a shining beacon on the horizon far sooner than they expect it to... had their paws been so hungry to return? Trepidation slows their gait suddenly, anxiety clutching at their throat and threatening to squeeze all air from their lungs. A whirlwind of thoughts screams of rejection, of pointed glares and suspicion... What hope for a happy reunion that had spurred their decisions becoming rotted with fear in an instant.
Was it possible that someone had already plucked apart the vague excuse of their illness and surmised the truth, waiting until this exact moment to rear their head with malicious delight? There were plenty amongst SkyClan that did not favor kittypets... that might take pleasure in marking another one unfaithful... unreliable... They hesitate, withdrawing their paw and thinking to turn back, to rush after soot-dusted fur and appeal to another option... another path.
But countless days of sleeplessness spent fraught with apprehension return in ruthless memory. How many times had they begged for a moment of quiet... a day spent amongst the trees listening to birdsong? A sunrise spent without tiny claws pricking at the soft spots of their underbelly and warming them uncomfortably in their nest? They'd dreamed of it... Wondered after how the time spent with friends might've been instead. All the while pleading with some unseen force to make a good parent out of them over night... to steal away the deep well of tired that permeated all layers of their being... to give them identity again outside of 'mother' to two tiny mirrors.
They thought eventually it would all go back to normal.... and now it would. Now it would have to.
Edenberry couldn't avoid it any longer... in the moments of uneasiness, cats had already begun to filter in and out of camp for the morning. They've been seen, been recognized and though they know the warrior that left might've offered a cheerful, shining greeting, their confidence abandons them to a nervous smile and tired eyes.
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we are so barack
taking place just outside of camp just in case that's unclear! -
-- edenberry / skyclan daylight warrior / any pronouns / 16 moons
-- mostly white with black pinstripe and green eyes / scarred face and back
-- color #728c69