- Apr 30, 2023
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For as permanent as the feeling seems, Thriftpaw waits patiently for it to find its end. Someday he will wake and he will not need to remind himself of the normalcy of all of this. He will not feel worry storm in his chest, the rabbit kick of his heart as it runs against his ribs. Thriftpaw will not need to smile against the urge to slink somewhere low and hide. He will learn how to be grateful to live in the greatest clan in the world. Someday, soon, (soon, he thinks like a prayer, soon!) Thriftpaw will remember without being told that this is where he is meant to be.
Today is a slink-and-hide day. Today memories bite at Thriftpaw, sudden as a snake from grass, and he just wants to curl in his (exposed to the sky — exposed to the world; not safe!) nest and breath until he doesn't need to hold back the anxious tremors in his ears. It's a familiar motion. Thriftpaw circles like a dog before he lays, kneads worn out moss as if he is softening it instead of shredding it, and then his paw shifts to find —
Something is missing from his nest.
Thriftpaw jolts gracelessly to his paws, which haven't stopped pushing through the moss even as he had stood. Periwinklebreeze had given Thriftpaw a feather to make him feel better — and it had made him feel better! — and Thriftpaw had kept it, even when the softer down had gone ragged and the rachis had bent out of shape. He'd kept it because it was a gift and he liked it and it was supposed to make him feel better. His head snaps left, right, hopeful that wind had simply grabbed it and placed it somewhere else in camp, but it isn't anywhere.
"Someone touched my nest," Thriftpaw says it more like a revelation than an accusation, even if it feels like such. His feather wasn't exactly a secret — Thriftpaw's eyes dart, left, right, until the burn forces him to blink, "Somebody — I'm supposed to... I'm supposed to have a feather and it isn't here and, and... has someone seen it? Anyone?"
Today is a slink-and-hide day. Today memories bite at Thriftpaw, sudden as a snake from grass, and he just wants to curl in his (exposed to the sky — exposed to the world; not safe!) nest and breath until he doesn't need to hold back the anxious tremors in his ears. It's a familiar motion. Thriftpaw circles like a dog before he lays, kneads worn out moss as if he is softening it instead of shredding it, and then his paw shifts to find —
Something is missing from his nest.
Thriftpaw jolts gracelessly to his paws, which haven't stopped pushing through the moss even as he had stood. Periwinklebreeze had given Thriftpaw a feather to make him feel better — and it had made him feel better! — and Thriftpaw had kept it, even when the softer down had gone ragged and the rachis had bent out of shape. He'd kept it because it was a gift and he liked it and it was supposed to make him feel better. His head snaps left, right, hopeful that wind had simply grabbed it and placed it somewhere else in camp, but it isn't anywhere.
"Someone touched my nest," Thriftpaw says it more like a revelation than an accusation, even if it feels like such. His feather wasn't exactly a secret — Thriftpaw's eyes dart, left, right, until the burn forces him to blink, "Somebody — I'm supposed to... I'm supposed to have a feather and it isn't here and, and... has someone seen it? Anyone?"
WINDCLAN APPRENTICE ✦ GOLDEN TABBY TOM ✦ 4 MOONS