As the others leap down from their hiding spot in the trees, Drizzlepaw finds himself hesitating for the first time in awhile. He’s not exactly sure why; maybe it’s been the lack of proper sleep, or maybe he’s truly afraid about how this battle will go. Despite the brave facade he put on, he really didn’t know how he would handle his first ever battle with another cat. Especially since it seems like they’re here to deal heavy damage, possibly even kill…he shutters at the thought.
He thinks back to his words to Thistleback when he approached the border, how he vowed that he would do anything for the clan, even if that means he would die. His life is in StarClan’s paws now, and he wouldn’t change that for anything. He has an obligation, and it’s one he will fulfill willingly. …At least, that’s what his mind is telling him. His body is betraying him though, as he shakes like one of the leaves on the branches he’s on. This is your new normal, Drizzlepaw, he tells himself. This won’t be the last time his clan will fight another, and he needs to be ready. Why doesn’t he feel ready? He has to be! Has to!
He’s tired of mentally fighting with himself, and instead scouts for any WindClanners not attended to yet. His eyes land on one, and his blood immediately runs cold. It’s a lilac tabby, and his brain is instantly flung back to his conversation with Soma. His brother…Sand had never felt like one, really. His mom played favorites the moment they arrived, giving him all the attention while Drizzlepaw was left in the dust. He holds a lot of resentment towards him, and it comes out full force as he jumps on top of the NPC warrior without much thought.
He feels like he’s watching someone else maneuver his body as his anger drives his every action. He throws swipe after swipe with his claws at the warrior, who tries to escape his wrath, but to no avail.
“Get off me! Get off!” They yowl, but Drizzlepaw doesn’t relent. Is he truly capable of such cruelty? He’s never felt like this before. He knows WindClan is evil in every sense of the word, but even then… The moment he doubts himself, his enemy takes the opportunity to knock him off them, and that only angers him further.
His attacks become even more aggressive as he yells, his awareness slipping even further. He can only think about how much he wants this warrior to hurt; for how much WindClan has hurt the other clans, his clanmates, and for reminding him of how Sand had hurt him. Hurt! Hurt!
"Hurt!" He screams out loud, voicing his inner turmoil. But another thought comes to him...how is he acting any better than the cats attacking them all right now?
He instantly sobers up, as he falls to the forest floor, his eyes widening and fill with tears as he realizes how much damage he's done. If he didn't stop himself, the tabby in front of him easily could have died. There's blood all over them, blood he spilled. It's on him, too.
"I..." He whimpers, as his mind goes blank.
"That wasn't me...this isn't me..." He's never been violent. What made him snap? Did Duskpool's wounds and the shadow of his brother looming over him affect him that much? Why didn't he notice? The NPC slowly backs away as they realize Drizzlepaw wasn't going to hurt them further, though they're not in good condition.
"You're insane," the lilac tabby retorts before scampering off.
Drizzlepaw did a number on them, and he's shocked he can't feel the sting of any wounds, just exhaustion seeping in. Did they really have to attack so late at night? Complaining felt better than being reminded of his trauma, and he slowly stumbles away from the battlefield himself. His movements become slower and slower as his body starts to feel heavy, and the last thing he sees before passing out is the injured warrior almost stumbling into
@GREENEYES .
// OOC : TL;DR fought an NPC, brutally beat them up after having a meltdown, and then passed out from the exertion. Has some scratches on his sides from the cat trying to pry him off but nothing major.