private to cover up the rancid smell - pebbletail

[owlcrest]

feel the rain on your skin

for now, the apprentice had let go of his need to leave, but that didn't mean he wasn't angry anymore. He was livid. And it was clear as day as he tried to weave reeds into the den walls; claws out, and teeth gritting as he pretty much slammed it against the ground.

Everything frustrated him, especially so soon after whatever you wanna call it happened. The disappointment everyone faced him with was enough to only anger the apprentice more. He didn't deserve this, in his head. He didn't need this. But this is all he had anymore. Who would we be as loners? I don't want to be nothing. Sunpaw had said, but he didn't care. He felt like nothing now, growing frustrated at the patience it took to carefully weave the reeds. They kept breaking in his grip, and the chocolate apprentice only groaned.

And then, he realized the hesitant presence of another, his head snapping towards the grey and white warrior, mismatched hues of ice and moss casting a look over his friend before turning his head away. "If you're here to tell me you're disappointed in me, keep it to yourself," he snapped, gritting his teeth.

But he let out a sigh after a moment, head dropping in the shame he felt, deeply embedded into his stomach, a churning of anxiety. He wasnt mad at pebbletail. He couldn't reasonably take his anger out on the other.

"M sorry," he mumbled. "You didn't deserve that I'm just -," his paw slammed with the reeds. "More frustrated than I should be." He just didn't want to hear it from another mouth. He didn't especially wanna hear it from his best friend.

@pebbletail


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  Owlpaw
  Riverclan Apprentice | Mentored by: Hemlockshine
  Gender: amab, he/him
  Personality: Little Brother Vibes, Hides pain with humor, Competitive, Loyal, Confused easy, Not the smartest tool in the shed.
  Physical: Easy | Mentally: Medium
  May start a fight | will not flee | will show mercy
  Peaceful power play allowed!
  Penned by Deidre
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[pebbletail]

(☼) "i'm not disappointed in you," the voice is low, rumbling in a white-tufted chest as the blue tom approaches his friend. lantern-bright eyes find the dual hued ones of owlpaw, soft understanding glowing there as he joins the earthen tom, picking up a reed and haphazardly beginning to weave it into the lining of the den. owlpaw's teeth snap together, and pebbletail can hear the frustrated gritting, his tabby friend's tail lashing.

truthfully, pebbletail is not quite certain what started the argument between sunpaw and foxtail that had escalated to include owlpaw, but he knows all parties involved are hurting. he's never seen his former mentor snap like that, never seen the tomcat physically ill from an argument. similarly, he has never seen eager, spitfire owlpaw so low. "it's okay that you're frustrated. i... i get it," he replies voice even, brows furrowed. "i just don't want you to loose yourself to that frustration."

the fluffy head tips, orange eyes fixed on the other tom. "don't let this harden you. you're like this lovely, fun, bright tom. you stand up for your friends, and you're going to become a brilliant warrior," his paws havee stoped moving, reed abandoned in the side of the den. pebbletail inches his frame closer to owlpaw, head coming to gently bonk against his friend's head. "you're owlpaw. you're one of my best friends. stars, i dunno how i would've survived apprenticeship without you." a gentle huff, whiskers twitching. "i'm sorry you got the short end of the stick. it's tough. it feels unfair. but you're gonna get through it, and if i can help, i will."

LET ME BE YOUR OWN ☼ ICARION CARRION

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• PEBBLETAIL ☼ HE / HIM, WARRIOR OF RIVERCLAN. 12 MOONS OLD, PENNED BY LAVS
  
  
  a large blue tabby with low white and vitiligo. pale blue fur covers the length of pebbletail's stocky body, sliced through with darker tabby stripes and spots. baleful orange eyes peer out of heavy set sockets, and his muzzle, paws, and tail tip are dashed with white.

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[owlcrest]

He couldnt- he didn't want to believe pebbletail at first. He was just saying that to make him feel better he was sure of it. But as the grey splashed warrior turned to his side, regardless of how he acted, and chose to assist him- owls mismatched gaze softened, paws falling to the ground underneath him and head hanging.

I don't want you to lose yourself to that frustration.

His ears held backwards, head dropping in a sort of shame, as pebbletail gently bonked his head against the brown apprentices. and owlpaw would cry, he would let tears fall, but he was- he didn't want to let those emotions through. He wanted to stew in his anger, and he didn't know why. "You're right .. I don't .. like this." He let out a breath of air, curling his tail around his toes. Pebbletail wasn't there. He didn't know.

"Foxtail interrupted Sunpaw while we were talking about how we worked seperately at that, how we were working hard, proud of ourselves even- and he said he didn't like how Sunpaw ignored him! But, she doesn't! And they, just all came upon us like- a fish to a worm. And, I got upset. I guess, I have a 'big mouth' and... Hemlockshine snapped on me too. Not just your moms. He said I was wasting it all, being Riverclan born or something. I don't understand it. I don't understand anything. Between me and you... I feel like this wouldn't have all happened if Foxtail... Tried a different approach, and that's all I was trying to say.... But I muddied it up my words .. Pebbletail. I was trying to defend her... Innocence! They- we can't talk during the day. Until a moon and half. It hurts."

A word vomit. A continuation of his 'big mouth'. But he was trying to explain the best he could. What happened, his feelings, and it just seemed confusing even to him. "I... Don't understand these- emotions. And Sunpaw, she was just upset to be... She thought she was losing her only friend. She.... Mmmm. She lashed out but, she didn't mean to! She was... Imagine... Being the mouse. I'm sure it was like that. And- we moved our nests together, pebbletail. But, I don't know. I- my heart hurts..."

He let out a sigh.

"I'm sorry. You're my best friend. I just... Wanted you to know what happened. I... I'll fix this. And... I'll be Owlpaw again. I just... Feel weird right now. I... My mentor just died, and it was my fault. I was not strong enough to save him." It was hard for him to admit, that he felt weird. It had always been hard for him to admit. And he was just a spiral now, that kept, escalating. Further and further. But finally he was done, searching the ground, before back up to Pebbletail, to his best friend. What would he think now?

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