told me all of my cages were mental || koipaw

[ashpaw!]

They aren't friends yet. And Ashpaw knows how that happened. She used to be friends with everybody, but losing Pumpkinpaw turned her whole life around... little recluse, hiding behind Iciclepaw or Willowroot. She and Koipaw just never had the chance to click.

And then the training incident.

Ashpaw knows Koipaw wasn't going to hurt her. That the other girl was only following instructions. But Koipaw seemed kind of — horrified, afterward, and Ashpaw has wondered if Koipaw knows she knows that. Koipaw didn't do anything wrong.

Now the flooded river's swept them all up into chaos ... Cicadastar is seven lives strong, now, not eight; they've forged their way to temporary shelter; Hazekit's gone missing and been found. For Ashpaw's part, she fought off a fox. An entire fox. It's been a tumultuous week.

Now's as good a time as any, isn't it?

Ashpaw's legs are still unsteady but they'll carry her out of the medicine den, at least, short excursions as her body stitches itself back together. She finds herself near the meager fresh-kill pile — it's late in the day, nearly evening, so she figures most folks have eaten, right? — she snags a decent-looking fish and searches the camp, spotting Koipaw nearby.

"Hi," Ashpaw will greet the girl upon approaching. Soft, but not fearful or timid. Something's different about her now; she feels it in her bones. "Do you want to... share this, maybe? I dunno, it's okay if not, I just..."

She searches for the right words, landing on the truth. What does she want?

"I think it would be cool to be friends," she offers. "You know. Get to know each other a lil better? You seem pretty cool." She cracks a smile, then, because it's true — Koipaw does. Then again, Ashpaw thinks all of her peers are cool. ​

—— " i found gold in the wreckage "

✦ ooc ✦ character information ✦ recent events

• @koipaw ik it's been ages but it's here now if u still wanted!
  
  
• - 7 month old orange tabby with green eyes
  - apprenticed to lead warrior willowroot
  - crushing hard on iciclepaw
  - happy-go-lucky, mischievous, hardworking
  - very friendly, but defensive of riverclan!
  - "speech"
• - disclosed being abused by spiderfall, who was exiled & who then killed her best friend pumpkinpaw
  
  - temporarily apprenticed to npc pebbleskip due to willowroot moving into the nursery
  
  - benched for a few weeks at smokethroat's request after a training incident; mainly stays in camp and helps with the kits or does chores
  

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[koispots]

Hi, it's kind, it's soft. Is it pity, after she had spent more than half her life seething? Anger floods her veins and she turns, "What?" gruff and generally unkind, she doesn't want to talk right now. But, but theres no warrior that stands in front of her with sad eyes and to find the maker she has to let her gaze travel downwards. Flame colored fur, white splotches of snow. She... Was not going to do this today, go play with someone else. Her eye twitches and immediately shes planning an escape, as she always does when the younger apprentices approach her.

Theres an awful lot of words that she wants to say in the moment, but they're choking her and ultimately nothing falls from her mouth.

Ash starts spouting something about wanting to share, how she thinks it'd be cool to be friends. Would it? Koi comes off as intense and shes seen Ashpaw in the works, she's softer. Koi would only hurt her again. But.. Koi has no time to play apprentice shenanigans, she'd be a warrior next month and she still had a ton of training to do with Lightning. She opens her mouth to decline but theres a voice in the bank of her mind, one she has not heard in forever, begging her to relax. Begging to be carefree once more. With a heavy sigh, Koi nods, reaching out her paw to thump the ground besides her. "Fine, I guess." Awkward... She's only been in this close of quarters with Gloompaw. Gloompaw, her best friend, yes, she understood her; eyes drift instinctively towards the medicine den.

Gloom isn't in the mouth of the den (and with slight frustration that she hadn't seen her, she lets it go) and Koi only tucks her legs under her body, stares as the ground with flattened ears. Despite the fish just sitting there and despite the hunger that gnaws at her stomach she makes no move to take a bite. Undeserving. "You can have it. If you're hungry." her voice is flat as she turns her head to catch Ashpaw in her peripherals.

And Ash says she seems pretty cool, which makes Koi's face scrunch up in shame and anger. "Don't say that." she doesn't want to hear it from anyone, not Lightningstone, not Buckgait, not Gloompaw and especially not Ashpaw. Not after she had caused the other molly to freeze up, relive whatever shit the other had gone through. "... Are you... okay.... after that fox?" lame, she knows it, and Koi doesn't feel like she has it in her to care (which is nothing to do with ash but the world as a whole, koi thinks), but the flame is a flicker of interest. She doesn't meet the fire-born apprentices eyes.
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"speech"​