private unthinkable &. vulturemask

[BUMBLEBREEZE.]

this wasn't what he had wanted for vulturemask. he was scared, even if he hadn't wanted to admit it that much, that something bad was bound to happen. vulturemask seemed to have a loyalty to sootstar that he couldn't quite understand, and sometimes ( a lot more than he would ever realize ) he wished that the tom didn't. they could have all gone away from here. found refuge in a new clan that wouldn't be so terrifying to live in. but... there were a lot more factors than just loyalty keeping the both of them here. for one, family. vulturemask now had little siblings to care for, just as bumblebreeze had. they couldn't just- he would never leave his siblings here. he couldn't. they were his responsibility, and he knew that vulturemask had felt the same way about his own. they both had responsibilities that required them to stay but now... now vulturemask did more than bumblebreeze and he can't feel anything but worry.

j'ai peur. he can't help but think. he's scared. he'd seen what this position had done to his mom, actively watching as it ate her alive and made her lose it. she was still his mama but maybe she would see be here if she had never become a medicine cat in the first place. dandelionwish is no different. he tries to do what's right but starclan makes it impossible. he doesn't want to see this happen to vulturemask. but he can't do anything. he will simply be there to catch him, if he falls. to steady him when he stumbles. it's call he can do.

"you know... I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep very well with you in here."

bumblebreeze looked up, single eyed gaze watching vulturemask before he sheepishly lashed his tail.

"i-i mean i... I just... h-have gotten u-used to o-our nests... being cl-close... th-thats all."

he rubbed his muzzle with embarrassment, as if trying to get the rising heat off of it. making a fool of yourself. way to go, bumblebreeze.
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[ WISH I COULD TURN YOU BACK INTO A STRANGER ]​

 

[VULTUREMASK]

It would be a lie to say he not was under alot of pressure right now. He only had one month to learn everything that Dandelionwish knew before his friend would get exiled and taken away from him. The same friend he was forced to replace. The last one was not exactly something he felt bad about though. In his mind this position had taken more from Dandelionwish then actually given him any joy or happiness and if so he could set them free from all of that and cage himself to carry all of this heavy responsibility that came as windclans medicine cat...then, he couldn't feel bad about it. Vulturemask was unsure if he had what it took though, never having seen himself as a healer over anything. He had never been one to give up without trying though.

Vulturemask had been staring down on them herbs he had been trying to memorize when his dear friend Bumblebreeze had entered the den to pay him a visit. He could tell something was up without even looking at them. It was not difficult for him to tell. The new medicine cat contunie to stare at the herbs for a while longer, listening to what his friend said. Unable to sleep well from now on?. Bumblebreeze contunied, stumbling over his own words. he had noticed that was something the blue tom often did when he felt nervouse or anxious. What he heard caught his attention. Vulturemask would twitch a ear and he would cast a side glance over at their embarrassed friend. " Uh, is that so..." he sounded distant, like he was in deep thoughts.

Suddenly he stood up to make his way over to Bumblebreeze so he could stand in front of them, and Vulturemask who was rather tall might be hovering his head down as he took a long look at them, his orange orbs glowing with intensity in the dark. " In that case you should just sneak inside of here at night. I've plenty of room for you here." That would solve that problem would it not?. Vulturemask contunie to observe their face for a reaction, a response to his suggestion. If that would make Bum feel more comfortable to this change he wouldn't mind it. In fact he missed having them sleeping next to him too.


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