private VESPERS ☆ BEEFANG

[CICADAFLIGHT]

Ears still dripping river - water, as soon as he's freed himself from prying eyes and thorny tangles of questions, Cicadaflight makes a beeline for the soothing, moss - draped entrance of the medicine den, hoping that the cooling odor of bitter herbs and medicinal fragrance might chase the last sparks from his burning ears. More than that, hoping that his sister—always dependable for advice, the cat he has had at his side since they were little and watching the starbugs; more importantly, one of the few cats he knows who's in, like, a relationship—will be able to advise him now. After all, though they're relatively quiet about it, he's not a minnowbrain—he's seen the way Moonbeam and @BEEFANG look at each other, and they share a nest, for the stars' sake.

" Beefang! " he practically yelps as he scrambles in, hoping his sister will be there, waiting for her mate to return from some errand or another ( he has no insight into the world of the healers, after all )—and blessedly, she is. Has Beefang always felt like this around Moonbeam, since she was old enough to? Stars, how can she bear it? He has only been aware of his . . . feelings about Driftwood for a smattering of minutes and already it's unbearable. He feels as if he might be trapped in some eternally - burning fire.

" How— " he stammers, settling disbelievingly onto his haunches with a thump, two - toned eyes gazing blankly at the sandy earth and then snapping up to his sister's face. He's almost too panicked to be embarassed, but not quite, when flame still licks at his ears and sharp, amused golden eyes flicker behind his own lids. Cicadaflight swallows thickly, mrrowing, " How did you know you loved Moonbeam? And what did you do when you figured it out? "

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[BEEFANG]

ᨒ AN EYE FOR AN EYE, A LEG FOR A LEG. A SHOT IN THE HEART DOESN'T MAKE IT UNBREAK ᨒ​

࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ — Beefang snorts as she lays in her nest awaiting for the return of Moonbeam and her claws briefly prick at their nest as she tries to get comfortable even if its just a mere heartbeat. The black smoke found it a lot easier to slip whenever the pale furred molly's pressed against her own side and she feels less tense than usual, her tattered ear flicks to the side as she hears the clumsy pawsteps of someone approaching the den. Beefang can't help the scowl that forms on her face already knowing that it's likely some other cat searching for her mate and she's about to part her jaws to tell them that Moonbeam isn't here but realizes that the bumbling cat is her brother so her jaws snap shut. Her eyebrows knit together wondering what's wrong with him as she calls for him and it makes several possibilities blossom in her mind as to why Cicadaflight calls to her "What is it?" Her body tensing up as she becomes more alert of her surroundings and sits up to regard her brother better.

"How did you know that you loved Moonbeam?"

The question itself makes her blink at Cicadaflight as she tries to process his question but it makes her wonder, if Moonbeam and her being mates is obvious to the rest of the clan yet. Although, it isn't hard to put the pieces together as to why Beefang hadn't gone to the warriors den after the vigil that they had held the night before and her frown deepens. It might've not been a big secret but the young warrior still wishes for privacy and she isn't openly affectionate with the pale furred medicine cat in public but... The question at paw makes her jaw tighten in the slightest as she tries to find the best way to answer her brother. How had she known that she loved Moonbeam? "I didn't." It comes out a lot more blunt than she had anticipated and it causes her to wince for a moment before she settles down into the nest noting all the dried blooms, she'd need to replace them soon enough for Moonbeam.

"At least... not at first, anyways..." Beefang admits as she picks at a few of the dried petals that were near her snowy dipped paws and she can't help but feel like her ears are on fire, the fact that she's having this talk about romantic feelings with her brother makes her feel embarrassed yet... She will tuck this memory away and cherish it later knowing that Smokestar likely would've guided each of his kits when they felt something towards another cat whoever it may be. "I've never padded after another cat nor thought about it really... especially with training and the death..." She continues feeling her mouth growing dry knowing that she had dove into her training those final moons before her warrior ceremony and it had provided a distraction, a way to briefly douse out the pain that she felt.

"I've lost so many close to me... I'm afraid to continue losing more... After the meeting, I found myself in the medicine den and that fear resurfaced." Beefang doesn't go into full details not wanting for her brother to think she's grown soft or weak as she recalls that moment together with her best friend, "I realized I didn't want to lose Moonbeam. I don't know what would become of me if I ever lost her... The thought alone hurt so much that it was difficult to talk... to breathe... to even think of a life without my mo... Moonbeam." Her paws shuffle awkwardly, Beefang fixes her gaze onto Cicadaflight with her lone eye narrowing.

"Who?" She gets to the point as always, if she must be vulnerable in the retelling of her and Moonbeam's confession then she wishes to know why or whose the reason Cicadaflight came to find her.

⡠﹞SHES NOT A BAD KID ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ BUT THEY HAD TO DO IT, SHE HAD TO CRACK﹝⠢

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  WARRIOR SKILLSET;
  — ✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✧✧ HUNTING
  — ✦✦✦✦✦✧✧✧✧✧ TRACKING
  — ✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✧✧ COMBAT
  — ✦✦✦✦✧✧✧✧✧✧ STEALTH
  — ✦✦✦✦✦✧✧✧✧✧ STRATEGY
  — ✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦ SWIMMING
  — ✦✦✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧ CLIMBING
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  ✦ a shorthaired black smoke molly w/low white and a singular amber eye
  ✦ oftentimes comes off as untrusting of those around her, closed off, and not the easiest to engage in conversation with, she's not easy to befriend. distrusting of outsiders and will snap at you if y/c walks up to her on her blind side. all her opinions are IC only.
  ✦ 14 moons old; ages the 10th every month
  ✦ asexual homoromantic; mated to moonbeam
  ✦ currently mentoring... roepaw ; formerly mentored by smokestar
  ✦ firstborn daughter of cicadastar and smokestar
  ✦ sister of cicadaflight and loveburn
  ✦ "speech", thoughts, attacking
  ✦ peaceful powerplay allowed

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