private VIEWS OF DEATH AND BITTER COLD [🐦‍⬛] sycamorepaw

[LAVENDERPAW]

Snow, as Lavenderpaw is discovering, suits him poorly. Or maybe it's him that poorly suits it; after all, snow is a much older beast than any of them. Lavenderpaw especially stands out starkly against its soft white hide, an unflattering speck of smoke and ink. It swallows his tiny form so easily, eager to devour him when he ventures too close to one of its many hidden mouths. Everything is evenly covered, every dent and dip in the ground disguised, just waiting to eat undersized apprentices like him.

Having been fished out of one such snowdrift for the second time today, Lavenderpaw concludes that the snow hates him and wants him gone. He shakes out his fur thoroughly and refuses further help, brushing off the warrior who had retrieved him with a tight growl of "I'm fine." His pelt burns with shame and his pride stings just as deeply as the cold stings his nose. "Can we move on already?" Maybe if they stop fussing over him sometime in the next moon, they'll get around to teaching him how to stop falling into snowdrifts.

He'd been brought out with a couple of other apprentices in a small group to train in the snow, and he feels like they're all staring at him. A pair of green eyes accidentally catches his, and he meets them with a challenging blue and gold stare of his own.

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• @Sycamorepaw!

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• LAVENDERPAW ✩ he/him, apprentice of shadowclan, seven moons
  ⭃ a small, spiky-furred black smoke tom with odd eyes and low white. he's resentful of being dumped at shadowclan's paws by his nonna, and avoids his new clanmates as much as he can, but in truth he's a compassionate young cat who romanticizes the world around him. he holds a deep fascination with birds of prey. ic opinions, he is in his pre-teen angst phase and it will get worse before it gets better.
  ⭃ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted / / underline and tag when attacking ↛ see battle info here
  ⭃ penned by solaire ↛ @funeralscythe on discord, feel free to ping for plots.

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[Sycamorebloom!]

[ ༻ 𐃉 ༺ ] Having been borning during the time of frost and snow despite it being nearly close to the end of its time, Sycamorepaw was more equipped for the cold than thaf of Green-leaf, from his long fluffy fur to having a mix of brown and white to help ease him to be camouflage in both the snow and greens of grass, and mud. Green eyes watching as a much younger apprentice kept struggling in the snow, even falling into a snowdrift before a slight snort came from the older apprentice's nose. These were the stuff Marblepaw was missing, her nose always stuck in herbs, he didn't know how she could stand it.

Yet it would seem Lavenderpaw caught the gaze of his dark green eyes before shooting him a challenging look that causes Sycamorepaw to raise his chin slightly. "If you paid more attention to your surroundings instead of your paws, you won't keep falling into them" he stated coolly before beginning to walk forward, keeping pace with the other warriors, not minding the snow that his paws sunk into, perhaps Lilacfur and Siltcloud giving him longer legs helped even more but he ignored even the slightest thoughts that his mothers help shape him to where he was today.

He knew he had a tendency to be haughty with the other apprentices, after all his sister will be the medicine cat next and his family had a lineage of lead warriors, leaders, and medicine cats so of course he felt a sembiance of superiority over others like Lavenderpaw, yet he knew deep in the pride he had the insecurity of Siltcloud being his mother was still there. "Don't use your eyes for the ground, use your eyes for whats in front of you" he explained. Besides, he'll be receiving his name sometime soon, so maybe he has a bit above the other with that as well.

‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎┌── So breakable unbreakable ──┐‎

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  Sycamorepaw 𐃉 He, She, They, Shadowclan apprentice, 11 moons.
  ⭃ LH Rosetted Cinnamon Tabby with low white and green eyes, has an extra set of toes
  ⭃ Lilacfur x Siltcloud
  ⭃ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted (ask first) / / underline and tag when attacking
  ↛ see battle info here
  ⭃ penned by Ryn ↛ @/Rynnaro on discord, feel free to dm for plots.

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