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These reprieves were never at moments you'd identify as 'ideal.' It left a sour taste in her mouth always. She had failed too much to merit such a lengthy stint of recovery... it was infuriating. Terrifying. The longer she'd stayed shackled to that nest, the more days she'd wake up from fitful sleep with sweat dripping down the small of her back... it had threatened of Ravensong's inability to weave the stars to his will. That she might join them.
But it had gotten easier... finally. Sleep was restful, when not interrupted by intruders and the crumbling, haggard forms of her clan-mates returning with their own injuries to be tended to. A dark swatch of fur dappled in starlight comes to mind. Again.... again he'd been left to make a sacrifice. It felt like she stood in a pool of his blood, that it rose to her ankles now rather than just the spattering where Deacon's strike had sent it arcing onto her pelt.
Ravensong had been nothing short of fussy... his anxiousness at the staggering number of loses being translated into the firm, practiced grip of his paws as he pulled or pushed at her muzzle to check over her wounds for infection. She'd never once said thank you. Hoped sincerely her gratitude was felt in leveled stares, in her allowing him to prod and poke and not complain too much about being bored or needing to return to work. That was the best she could really offer... was her own waning patience.
Finally though (her paws itched for it), she was deemed fit enough to leave. Was not at immediate risk of opening the fresh pink scars that had been adorned in ground marigold, tenderly packed with cobwebs. And naturally, selfishly, her first thought was to look for her mate.. for the toddling pairs of six loving paws that had been awaiting her recovery.
But there were so many others bodies to account for; that grisly final stand off had happened but a few short days prior and while she understood that no one had died (permanently) within RiverClan, she ached to think of their injuries, their exhaustion. Their now slowly settling fear. Snakeblink had not managed such a lucky few scars this time as he had last... and even parting from where he lay in the medicinal den makes her nervous. What if once more she'd left that den with friends who would not follow suit?
Swallowing past the unsettling thought, the lynx point opts to stretch out in the small bits of sun that hinted towards new-leaf. To relish in being able to wander around again without Moonpaw piping up that she shouldn't be moving (not that she loathed it, just that she had been restless despite the pain). She'd need to make up for her absence as quickly as possible- owed the kittens a mighty fish to inspect and judge and share amongst themselves. Owed her sunshine gentle licks between her ears in apology for making her worry. To check in on her warriors, to thank Robinheart profusely for her help.
Just to name a few things on her list.
// for clarity's sake, this would be two days AFTER the war/war wrap up
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