WHAT MY HEART WAS WORTH | caterpillar

Aug 20, 2023
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Many of Chervilkit's days were spent in a honey-like sort of regret, as though she were trapped within the relegation of her own misfortunes, a sea of tar to swallow her up and never digest her. She simply floated around, day by day, anticipating the chance to breathe and to swim. It was hard for stiff limbs and a numb heart to reach the surface, where the sun kissed the shadowy surface and all of her family and friends waited for her with a smile on her face. And yet, she had fallen behind. Whether it had been sheer misfortune or her own undoing, the porcelain-featured feline had been at bay within her own garden of brimstone and abraded leafage.

Little Ghost's trancelike pondering had only broken because of the gentle stirrings of another presence beside her, as though a lepid and light wind blew upon her, a sweeter machination of faerie to lift her out of her torpor (if only for a momentary second). Moss-green gaze settled upon Caterpillarpaw, whom she had recognized. Faces tended to blur together, like an ocean of whiskers and snouts and unremarkable colors, and it was all too much for a fragile frond like her. Still, she took the time to recall each cat in Shadowclan and, if she could, one distinguishing feature about them. What kind of ghost would she be if she simply walked the earth and did not study it as a scholar would?

The dilute tortie turned to the feline who had, just like all the others, left her behind. How is your apprenticeship going?, the question bubbled upon Chervilkit's balmy tongue, but she swallowed it back down like a bitter poultice. Perhaps she should not jump to such conversation so quickly, especially since it often acetified into that saccharine pity that she so hated to see coat the strings of words and edges of faces. She just wanted to be like the other kits, so that's what she would try to do. "Hi. Do you need help with anything...? I promise I can do anything you need me to." Rehearsed words, regurgitated from the mother to the child, but they worked. It was always better to be polite than unkind. Cats liked someone who was always nice and did what they were told to.

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BLINDED BY THE LIGHTS

she was sad, to say the least. training with siltcloud didn't go very good and she could feel the disappointment in her mentor's words, no matter how much she tried to hide it. being blind made is impossible for her to see the look on her face, but it made her completely dependant on other senses and one of those things was hearing. the smallest infliction in voice, or change in it, she could hear. she wished she didn't. she wished that she didn't have to know how disappointed siltcloud was. she wished she could be better but... she couldn't help it. she just wasn't that strong. she isn't even sure that her blindness is to blame. she's small, and anxious all the time. she can't fight, not because she's blind but because she's weak. even forestshade had said so. her ears are pinned as her unseeing gaze fixed towards the ground. the sound of someone near her makes her fur prick up, and a squeak leave her. she spins, and faces chervilkit, tail sweeping behind her with a nervous look on her face.

"o-oh! uh-uhm! hi... i d-dont think so i-i'm... just..."

she wasn't doing anything. her eyes closed as she sighed, twitching her ears and trying to calm down.

"d-do you want to share a frog with me? i have to wait for siltcloud before i can l-leave the camp."

make friends, caterpillarpaw. you're gonna need them.