- Mar 23, 2024
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// cw: blood
How long has it been since she was in the medicine den? Despite the roaring floral scent ranging from sweet and sour, it seemed as if the metallic scent of blood forever stained her scent and her mouth. Her jaw tensed up and she found herself restless one of the nights and haunted by guilty memories━ the cowering forms of her siblings, the limp body of her father, Robinheart and Lichentail crumpled with despair of Smokestar's disappearance. Her gaze lingered out the medicine den and she slowly found herself forcing herself to her paws despite the sharp pain in her shoulders, stumbling momentarily in her pursuit to get up. In the middle of the night, she had found herself to the warrior den as she grasped the polished stone from the waters a couple weeks ago.
Troutsnout heaves softly as she struggles back to the medicine den with the citrine colored rock in tow, quietly making her way in the medicine den as she stares at the injured form of her best friend and the others. Look at what you caused. The voice taunts as she bares her fangs at the memory, curved claws digging into the sand. This is my fault. The wounded warrior would sourly think as she glances at Robinheart and gently places the rock before her, settling in her nest. Her paws lightly tucked under her chest as she stares out in the distance, a once vibrant chambray gaze now dimmed and lifeless━ guilt, rage. She finds herself restless and plagued with the taste of blood stained in her mouth still, an empty gaze contemplating the next steps in her life.
Everything she believed had crumpled so easily, and it was shameful how easy she braced a violent side. Was this what she was meant to do if it meant protecting those she loved? A white paw extends out as she stares at flexed curved claws, the images of how easy she shed blood and how violent she was. Is this what you want me to do, Starclan? Troutsnout ponders as if her beliefs were nothing in the scrutiny of the stars, a protector? What was the use of protecting others, if she couldn't even do it? A rustling of a nearby nest catches her attention as her ear flicks, wondering if it was Robinheart or one of the others. She didn't want to look━ she didn't have the right to. It was without a doubt, she looked like a monster now and felt like one (but... it felt right if it meant protecting her loved ones).
How long has it been since she was in the medicine den? Despite the roaring floral scent ranging from sweet and sour, it seemed as if the metallic scent of blood forever stained her scent and her mouth. Her jaw tensed up and she found herself restless one of the nights and haunted by guilty memories━ the cowering forms of her siblings, the limp body of her father, Robinheart and Lichentail crumpled with despair of Smokestar's disappearance. Her gaze lingered out the medicine den and she slowly found herself forcing herself to her paws despite the sharp pain in her shoulders, stumbling momentarily in her pursuit to get up. In the middle of the night, she had found herself to the warrior den as she grasped the polished stone from the waters a couple weeks ago.
Troutsnout heaves softly as she struggles back to the medicine den with the citrine colored rock in tow, quietly making her way in the medicine den as she stares at the injured form of her best friend and the others. Look at what you caused. The voice taunts as she bares her fangs at the memory, curved claws digging into the sand. This is my fault. The wounded warrior would sourly think as she glances at Robinheart and gently places the rock before her, settling in her nest. Her paws lightly tucked under her chest as she stares out in the distance, a once vibrant chambray gaze now dimmed and lifeless━ guilt, rage. She finds herself restless and plagued with the taste of blood stained in her mouth still, an empty gaze contemplating the next steps in her life.
Everything she believed had crumpled so easily, and it was shameful how easy she braced a violent side. Was this what she was meant to do if it meant protecting those she loved? A white paw extends out as she stares at flexed curved claws, the images of how easy she shed blood and how violent she was. Is this what you want me to do, Starclan? Troutsnout ponders as if her beliefs were nothing in the scrutiny of the stars, a protector? What was the use of protecting others, if she couldn't even do it? A rustling of a nearby nest catches her attention as her ear flicks, wondering if it was Robinheart or one of the others. She didn't want to look━ she didn't have the right to. It was without a doubt, she looked like a monster now and felt like one (but... it felt right if it meant protecting her loved ones).
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TROUTSNOUT ⋆ she / her / hers
✶ lh chocolate and white spotted tabby w/ blue eyes
✶ 16 moons old; ages the 23rd monthly
✶ bisexual biromantic; conflicted feelings for slateheart
✶ currently mentoring none; mentored by goosethroat
✶ ”speech”, thoughts, attacking
✶ all opinions are in character only