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It had been on his mind a lot actually, but he didn't think much of it. Times changed, the world moved forward and cats had to adapt to the way life was now rather than how it once was. Smokethroat was of the marsh colony only in name, he and Moss had never engaged much with the rest of the group. They kept to themselves and he watched them exist at a distance, fight their battles with the pine cats and struggle to get by. It was easier back then, just the two of them against the world, sometimes he preferred those days. Two cats were easier to keep safe and alive than countless, two cats needed less food, two cats made less noise. Then it became one cat and the loneliness almost drove him mad. He remembered screaming into the night asking for answering and recieving none back, his beloved mentor's body buried beneath the hollow of the willow tree they had made their home for so long. It was still here on the territory, he could go to it right now but he had recently stopped visiting as much as he used to. Hadn't taken her flowers in a while, not that there had been many during leafbare. Maybe soon he might...go see her. But for now he was just trying to manage.
The dawn patrol had ended, freeing the four of them from their duties for the time being and with the camp practically empty he found himself a spot to sit where he could stare off thoughtfully into space for a moment or so unbothered. He missed the camp itself, this temporary hovel was distressing to even be in.
"Does it ever bother any of you...? No longer having your names?" He did not know what Snakeblink and Cindershade were once called, only knew of Willowroot's in passing; Caraway. He'd known her the day she was named Willowroot, he had never really known her before so often times he forgot she had another name at all. Just as he sometimes forgot his own.
Ember. The smallest spark, a flickering of a faint flame, the hope to catch and blaze; survive in a world pitted against them. It didn't suit him any longer, he was no longer a mere scrap of a kitten roaming the streets alone and hungry-he didn't need a fire to catch. He was the smoke trail behind one that had, the remnants of an inferno that had erupted, the quiet after a storm.
He knew it bothered Buckgait, who refused to call herself her full given name. He knew it bothered Lightningstone's younger brother, homesick and unhappy with the world. Several cats had voiced minor complaints, but most had accepted it as he had also. "I can't see myself as anything else now."
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