private WHY DOES MY HEART CRY / asphodelpaw

[BEEFANG]

FIGHT SO DIRTY BUT YOU LOVE SO SWEET — She's curled into a tight ball trying her best fo fall asleep but the flashes of teeth, claws, and mottled fur keep her awake. Beepaw finally jolts up from her nest with widened eyes, her chest, and sides heaving not wanting to risk sleeping especially when it was still a fresh memory that haunted her. The bicolored molly glances around the apprentices den hoping that she hadn't woke someone up and rises from her paws slowly making sure that she doesn't step on anyone. She steps outside of the den, her eyes focusing on the night skies littered with stars, and she manages to calm down to the best of her abilities. Beepaw would've sought out Cicadapaw in his nest but she hadn't wanted to disturb his sleeping despite his nightmares, she still remembers when he had screamed in terror from the first one he had. Maybe she would search for him later and press herself to his side to attempt sleeping once more.

The sound of paw steps behind her is enough to make the fur along her back rise and she wonders if either of her littermates had seen her rise violently from her nest, she sees that it is not and her throat tightens. It's a completely different apprentice one that she has seen during a few passings and her bicolored gaze turns away before she begins to apologize "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to wake you up," A small frown on her maw as she curls her bottlebrush tail over her paws and let's her shoulders slouch slightly, she allows herself to relax even by a little.

𓆟. ° .• . TALK SO PRETTY BUT YOUR HEART GOT TEETH

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  ❥ 4 moons old
  ❥ riverclan apprentice
  ❥ sexuality unknown; single
  ❥ daughter of cicadastar and smokethroat
  ❥ sister of cicadapaw & starlightpaw
  ❥ "speech", thoughts, attacking
  ❥ easy; still learning how to fight
  ❥ peaceful powerplay allowed

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[Asphodelrain]

*+:｡.｡ "You didn't" Asphodelpaw responds with a hushed voice, mindful of the cats still slumbering around them as well as Beepaw's shot nerves. In truth, she really hadn't. Asphodelpaw had never had the best track record when it came to staying consistently asleep. Honestly, he didn't mind - sometimes even considered it a superpower since he was more keen than most to take on dawn patrols. He liked to think he worked better on less sleep, but even he wasn't foolish enough to stay up for too long. Still, it wasn't exactly a matter of choice for him, as he could curl up all he wanted in the softest nest imaginable but sleep always eluded him. Thus, for the most part, he spent most of the night outside of the apprentice's den, taking in the stars and letting the chilly air groom his short coat until he could stand it no longer. Finally, he entered the apprentice's den, where the collection of warm bodies made the enclosed space so much more bearable to stay in. That was when he passed by a clanmate who suddenly jerked awake with heavy breaths, and suddenly his night was a little less peaceful.

He didn't know much about Beepaw, aside from the fact that she was Cicadastar's daughter. That fact alone made it difficult for him to approach when they were nursery mates, so he didn't. He didn't try to break that barrier even after they both became apprentices, choosing to continue to keep to himself and his work. Asphodelpaw considered continuing this trend - passing her by and leaving her to her...dreadful dreams.
He may not know Beepaw well, but nightmares were certainly a familiar friend to Asphodelpaw. Especially lately. He shudders as he thinks about bubbles streaming from a submerged mouth. Writing, clawing for the surface...waning, popping into nothing...calm waters where life once struggled so hard to stay together...

"Do you...want to talk about it?" he asks, his voice even despite the prickle of awkwardness he felt. He wasn't the feelings type of guy, and he doubted Beepaw would even want to talk to a total stranger about her nightmares so his offer felt doubly out of place...but hey, he'd rest easy knowing he offered. After a moment of staring at his paws in the dark, he adds, "Ive...been having a lot of nightmares too so...I get it." It sucks went unspoken.

*+:｡.｡ Updated 11/22/23

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  GENERAL:
  ☆ Asphodelpaw
  ☆ DMAB— He/Him — Unsure
  ☆ 8 moons — Ages 1 moon every month real-time
  ☆ Mentored by Crashingtide
  ☆ Riverclan — Apprentice
  
  
  
  
  
  COMBAT:
  ☆ Physically easy | mentally medium
  ☆ Attack in bold #9fc3fc
  injuries: None currently

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