- Nov 8, 2023
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Shockingly cold water flows around him as he submerges himself, watches the dirt cloud the water. He bitterly wonders if it will wash away the heaviness that possesses him since his venture has screeched to an abrupt halt. Forestry around him seems to creep to life when he's uncomfortably somewhere concrete, he knows it's not going to last, he's never had the luxury of a home. Strange sounds of the tweeting above, the scurried sounds of the forestry around him, no whooshing of passing monsters, no caterwauling and no deafening pinging of rain against metal against where he has once sought shelter under.
Water sloshes under his belly the further he trudges, like the grief dragging at his paws, tugging at his legs. An empty stomach is what he's familiar with, so the food he's able to rip into after arriving has been a shock, the pile of prey has been a shock. The filthy, tangled pelt he's been lugging around has barely ever been clean, he's never made an effort with it, never had the facilities, long fur only seeing dirty puddles and rain. Bear remains mostly out of the icy cold water, not wanting to put be dragged into anymore dangerous situations, swimming not a skill he's advanced at beyond paddling when the water rises in the alleyways when the rain is overwhelming.
Body protesting the tension he's keeping contained, he swings his shaggy head to look at the land, he doesn't want to be in the water long if he can't help it, the way it sways unpleasantly, tugs and pulls at his coat has his shoulders pulled close to his body. Moving bodies in camp cause him to shift uncomfortably until he's hauling himself through the territory to the riverbank. He must have seen it at some point with Applefrost showing him around. He's suspicious, can't seem to grasp her intentions, similarly regarding the concept of the clan. He's sure he's going to wake up stripped of what has seemed like everything he's wanted. He's ready to ruin all the opportunities handed gracefully to him, poised to disappear when it suits him. When ripping into food in camp he's snapped his jaws at a warrior approaching, knows it hadn't been what he should have done right after the click of his teeth. It's making it clearer and clearer why he doesn't stay, why he has always carefully, and sometime clumsily detangled himself from everything that has ever been any kind of constant.
He's sure he hears something, head snapping to the noise, instinct takes over, his claws dragging deep into the soft dirt, scrabbling for the ground. It's likely a SkyClan cat, it's the territory, but he's expectant of something hissing and feral launching at him, or a rasped taunt - he's heard so many they've long since lost their impact. "Who's there?" The growl creeps into his tone, a warning to back off. His jaws snap shut at the reminder of Dogbite's words: drop the aggressive act. He tries again. "I don't have any fish for you." it's stilted, gruffed out like all his words. He doesn't want the assumptions of being a feral rogue, although, is that not what he is? While harboring, again that tenseness, his sad eyes bore around him, saying something else. Trying to dissuade himself from doing anything rash, he relaxes minutely enough to sheathe his claws. Thick coat heavy with water, he twists and shakes, ridding himself of the worst of the worst of what's weighing him down, needing to be as fast as he can be on his paws. Tries to find comfort in the idea that it's another cat, but is unable to find it.
//tldr: washing in riverbank, dooming about being involved in a clan and being around other cats.
ment tag - @APPLEFROST