Generally speaking, Badgermoon was not aware of the hurt he had caused. Or, at least, not aware of the depth of the hurt he'd caused. He knew that it hurt Curlewnose's feelings, knew that rejection stung no matter who you were. He knew that his rejection had hurt himself, that he had felt as if he had backed away from his first, and perhaps only, chance at lifelong love and happiness. That he had been too cowardly to accept what his heart was telling him, too frightened to accept those warm amber eyes. But he'd dealt with those feelings, handled them in...a way. It had had unexpected consequences - Scorchstreak's pregnancy had not been part of the plan - but it had ended happily, at least. He now had four wonderful children. Curlewnose was not really part of his life, other than as a passing figure in camp, and he was able to dismiss the stray feelings which clawed at him. So what if it felt like he was suffocating sometimes? So what if some nights felt so cold and empty that his bone marrow felt frozen?
It was all fine. He would live with the consequences of his cowardice, and someday, it would all be a distant memory.
All of this meant that he had no suspicion of the ambush waiting for him, none whatsoever: Scorchstreak's summons was answered at once, thumping after the calico with haste. "Of course, of course." Badgermoon said, trailing after her with concern and curiosity present on his face. "What is it, Scorchstreak?" She hadn't seemed panicked, but serious. And if it required more than a lead warrior's authority, he felt sure it was worth at least a modicum of worry. He watched her mottled coat disappear into the depths of a tunnel and he frowned, yellow eyes flashing with unease. "I can't fit down there, can I?" Badgermoon wondered aloud, half to himself as he edged closer to the tunnel's entrance. Carefully, he crept in, shuddering as darkness came over his head. He got about halfway in when he stopped short: his broad shoulders ensured he could go no further. Attempts to force himself forward were unsuccessful, til finally: "I can't go in any farther." He said, frustrated. "I'm - I'm not built for these tunnels. What's going..."
As his eyes adjusted to the light, a shape materialized in front of him, past Scorchstreak's patchwork coat. Slender body, cloud-kissed fur, patched with an elegant blue. Two amber eyes, like pools of honey. Curlew. "Oh, uh, hi, Curlewnose. Err. Nice, uh, nice to see you. I'm sorry, though, I'm - we're - right in the middle of something." He offered his brightest smile, attempting to take a few steps back. The darkness, the overwhelming scent of earth, the pressure against his shoulders...He couldn't move. He tried again to backpedal, but found that he was stuck fast. "Ah, I, I can't - I'm stuck, ha. I'm..." He trailed off, trying to look apologetic and not frantic. "Sorry, I - Scorchstreak, help me out? You had something you needed to show me...?"