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BONERIPPLE
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The dream she has gone through has left her in a whirlwind of emotions. No longer did she have a choice about rather she could join Cicada in Riverclan. No longer did she have a choice in going anywhere at all but to stay within the marshes of Shadowclan. That was what her dream had meant, the one in which she would go anywhere, walk as far as she could and never leave the marshes before the stone so bright would appear. It told her exactly what they wanted her to do and she did not realize it till she went to the stone with her sister. Saw it all for herself and now her heart feels heavy, feels pierced and hurting. Her time for fighting is over, that is what Hare Whiskers told her. That now she is to be the connecting to the stars that Shadowclan needs, that she is supposed to heal and mend the things that have been broken but at the cost her of her whims. At least in her mind that is what this costs her, the ability to go where she wants, the ability to choose her own steps. She is bound by the stars now and though she had hoped that things wouldn't be like this in the back of her mind she supposes she knew that this may happen. The dreams were strange enough to get her thinking and now after everything. She's trapped within her own home. This is where she belongs, this is where her loyalty will always be. There can be no possibilities of anything else.
The idea along makes her feel tense even as she had woken up from the dream before her sister, left the cave suddenly and swiftly before her sister. Now as she races across moorlands and through forests she feels terrible about it. Terrible because her sister is pregnant, and though not yet too heavy she still left her to fend for herself and to get back to the marshes. Though she doubts of Windclan finds her they will do anything to her. Still it is on her mind and her paws slow as she hears the bubbling of the river and then they stop as she comes to the waters edge. She will not cry she's done with crying. She's shed too many tears these past days and she just feels worn, tugged along a path she never thought suitable for her own paws. Blinking her water eyes she into the water of the river, unsure of where the Riverclan cats have housed themselves. It's just the river to her and so she calls out with a heavy tongue. "Cicada? Cica! I need to...." She needs to do what? Tell him.
Tell him she can not follow him. That she is bound. She is Bonejaw, medicine cat of Shadowclan.
-- feel free to respond before cicada does!