Cherrypaw had thought about her reunion with everyone as much as she didn't think about it and tried to not think about it, because what was the point of thinking about it when she could live it for real the first time instead of doing it all in her head? As their party dwindled at ThunderClan, then at RiverClan, and as the bristly heads of her home lines had lurched into view, her thoughtscape had remained as barren as the icebound wastelands the very same paws once traipsed through.
Ears flattened, she pushes her way through the bramble tunnel with practiced motions gaining confidence with every step, as though she hadn't strided beneath the watchful eyes of the old pines all the way here. When she emerges, she expects the SkyClanners to fall upon them like wolves. And fall...they don't quite do.
Bobbie goes to Blazestar. No, does Blazestar make for her first? Either way, her eyes clearly don't belong to her children. Funny, that. Lupinepaw and Crowpaw had been among even Cherrypaw's foremost thoughts, Crowpaw maybe a little less so. And she supposes Drowsypaw was somewhere among the tangle, their kithood spat somehow still not resolved. Maybe had been her fault all along, that argument that she couldn't even remember now. Suddenly stricken with the thought that she wouldn't want that to have lingered into her death on the mountains, she thinks of Little Wolf. And then, bitterly, that it was a good thing that Bobbie might be getting so cozy with—she looks away.
Unlike Dogbite, Fireflypaw and Twitchbolt make it clear who specifically they wouldn't have minded not seeing return so long as Greeneyes and Bobbie did. Okay, rationally, they probably would've been as upset as the next cat if Cherrypaw, Orangeblossom, Duskpool, and Chalk all died. Still, somehow everything irks her in this moment. She should be happy. They're home, finally, as safe and sound as a wildcat could be. She should be happy! Surrounded by everyone and everything she's ever known and loved (or tolerated), having cast aside those who had kept her alive for more than a moon, abandoning all those experiences to the mercy of her own memory...she should be happy.
Relieved, yes. Elated, no. The frustration and guilt mute for a moment upon the arrival of Glimmerpaw and Edenpaw. "Hey, Glim," she purrs, moving forwards to brush her cheek affectionately against her littermate's. In Dogbite's stead Glimmerpaw offers a full rundown of why the camp looked the way it does, something Cherrypaw had been too preoccupied with her clanmates to notice. "Oh, rogues? Seriously?" She frowns, scruntinizing camp with renewed annoyance. "You guys at home didn't just sit on your tails the whole time, I guess. That sucks." Whether she's talking about the devastation of camp or the rogues, it isn't clear. It didn't seem like SkyClan had been too hurt by it anyway, except maybe their prides.
Edenpaw flounces up to them in the same-old Edenpaw manner, and Cherrypaw reflects their grin with an ease she's for a moment surprised by. "Not even gonna say my name too?" she teases, aiming to lightly flick their pale side with her tail. They glance back at Glimmerpaw, who had something else to say. "Oh. Cool. Did Edenpaw, like, rub off on you or something?" she jokes, smirking at both apprentices. Based on one of her last conversations with her sibling, she couldn't say she didn't expect this. At least one of them was happy with themself, she supposes.
Suddenly, at her paws is a kitten. A little mousy one, with fur so long it probably serves more as a dirt-collector than a source of warmth for her, and Cherrypaw instinctively crinkles her nose with disgust. "Who are you?" the girl asks. "I'm Wolfkit," she adds without so much as a breath between, and Cherrypaw's heart skips a beat. Wolfkit? Who would name their child Wolfkit? Not after Little Wolf, surely, even though Howlfire and Fireflypaw were probably old enough to have kits now that she thinks about it... "Hi." Short and sweet, and said while leaning away. Whose child was this, anyway? They had better come fetch her before she started putting her grimy paws all over her fur. She hadn't stopped to groom herself ever since they got to Highstones; she didn't need any more work coming between this and a long nap.
Fortunately, something (or someone) else catches her attention and off she scampers. Cherrypaw takes the moment to blink away from her family and friends, just in time to catch the familiar shapes of two towering shadows. Slate's gaze against her cheek is an all-too familiar burn, and she returns it pettily and unflinchingly. What? she silently taunts. Not gonna call my ma 'Ora' again? She's not all that surprised he's not joining in on the festivities though. She'd get worried if he started to care about anyone other than Orangeblossom.
What Cherrypaw is surprised by though, is Crowpaw staying behind. She blinks at him from afar, in the midst of her loved ones, confusion and then irritation darkening her brows. The look on her face groans, What's your deal? Sunlit eyes dart across his form, the same unruly mess of smoky fur she's known since kithood, give or take a few muzzle-lengths taller and sporting a new cut on his lip.
Instead of crushing into her with the rest of them, he instead goes to corral Wolfkit and take her with him in his exit. Fleeting disappointment soon sours into anger, the beginnings of a sneer curling into her lip at the turn of his sooty tail. She loathes the clear look of neutrality on his face, so foreign directed at her. Should she not be bothered that one of her oldest friends couldn't care less about the fact that she almost died? Nevermind the way Cherrypaw couldn't even remember the last thing she said to him before she left, or even the last time they had spoken, like she did with his sister.
What guilt Cherrypaw might've noticed is swept away by the appearance of Lupinepaw herself. Her best friend is upon her in what feels like an instant, jade eyes flashing like the brilliant underside of leaves in Greenleaf. "I missed you too!" Her return purr so loud she swears she feels it rumble through her ear and into Lupinepaw's nose. She returns the gesture by aiming to brush her ivory cheek against her smoky one, just as she had done with Glimmerpaw. An unabashed grin stains her face when she pulls away, gaze alighting upon the other girl's face for a moment longer. Even through rogues and yellowcough and the trek to ShadowClan, she hadn't lost an ounce of her luster.
Cherrypaw doesn't feel as though she could claim the same. She just hopes she doesn't notice the odd way her flank fur ripples before she can tell her, beneath which hide the long straight souvenirs of the journey. With a pang she recalls some of their parting words—"I don't want you to come back with any ugly scars or anything, mmkay?"—and abruptly blinks away. She has nothing in her jaws to give her, no pretty highland flowers nor exotic bird feathers, nothing but hideous flesh drawn up and down her flanks. For another moment she's wordless. How would she tell her? Would she tell her? Would she swiftly reject Cherrypaw's presence just as her brother had, when she realized all of this?
She hadn't abandoned Cherrypaw when she was sniveling and shaking in that thunderstorm, when they both returned to camp looking more like sopping wet rats than apprentices. Lupinepaw couldn't just leave over this either. "I'm happy to be home too," she replies, like it's the most obvious thing in the world.
tl;dr: talking with orangeblossom, glimmerpaw, edenpaw, and lupinepaw, plus staring at and judging a few others!