CLAYFUR
[1/23/24] ✦ I GOT JUST ONE LIFE
- Jun 7, 2022
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Through most of it, Clay stands still as a stone, unable to focus directly on any one shouting cat. Clanmates, enemies, allies, all the voices flow together until it’s all muffled chatter in his ears. Despite it all, he thinks he’s doing well, putting on a brave face for the rest of the gathered cats—missing his usual smile, but then again, what is there to smile about? His mate is gone. Nothing can bring him back. No vengeance, no screaming match between leaders and warriors and anyone else who cares to join in. It’s all worthless now, in the after.
He tunes back into the conversation (if it can even be called such a thing) at the mention of his love’s name, fallen from the mouth of one of his dearest friends. Willowroot… he should talk to her sometime, see how she’s dealing with their loss. But their words aren’t received well, only seem to spur on their antagonistic audience. And then Cicadastar’s voice booms above the others, the tortoiseshell tom looking furious as he turns on Sootstar and then Howlingstar, and then the entire gathering, in turn. And then the scornful WindClanner speaks his love’s name, and Clayfur feels it like a strike to the chest.
His stomach drops to his paws. The world pitches below him, and he stumbles trying to maintain his footing. They’re all using Clearsight as a pawn, some piece in their blame game, their clashing of egos. He doesn’t blame Cicada, not really—Clearsight was his friend as well. His loyal warrior, a member of the clan that he’s meant to protect. And surely his ranting and raving is of good intention—but hearing his name flung around like that, like nothing but ammunition… It’s too soon.
He’s grateful when the leader dismisses them, calling the clan to leave. Numbly, robotically, he nods, looking to Antlerpaw as he turns to trudge off with the rest of his clan.
He tunes back into the conversation (if it can even be called such a thing) at the mention of his love’s name, fallen from the mouth of one of his dearest friends. Willowroot… he should talk to her sometime, see how she’s dealing with their loss. But their words aren’t received well, only seem to spur on their antagonistic audience. And then Cicadastar’s voice booms above the others, the tortoiseshell tom looking furious as he turns on Sootstar and then Howlingstar, and then the entire gathering, in turn. And then the scornful WindClanner speaks his love’s name, and Clayfur feels it like a strike to the chest.
His stomach drops to his paws. The world pitches below him, and he stumbles trying to maintain his footing. They’re all using Clearsight as a pawn, some piece in their blame game, their clashing of egos. He doesn’t blame Cicada, not really—Clearsight was his friend as well. His loyal warrior, a member of the clan that he’s meant to protect. And surely his ranting and raving is of good intention—but hearing his name flung around like that, like nothing but ammunition… It’s too soon.
He’s grateful when the leader dismisses them, calling the clan to leave. Numbly, robotically, he nods, looking to Antlerpaw as he turns to trudge off with the rest of his clan.
[ YOU ARE THE STARS TO ME ]