private dead in the middle ☂ Buzzardpaw

Puddlepaw

There is a wasps’ nest in my attic.
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"Buzzardpaw" she peers over at her littermate, haven risen from her own nest to shuffle next to his. Not truly caring if she stumbled over someone else in the process. "Are you awake?" They wouldn't be, not when she speaks to them. Truthfully they both knew better than that, but she asked out of habit from nights in the nursery. It doesn't stop her from lightly nudging it with her paw, there is a pause before she continues. "Did you want to go look at the stars?" Buzzardpaw liked them, to an extent that baffled her but she in this moment for once craved doing something that her littermate would actually enjoy.

She doesn't truly give Buzzardpaw an option because when does she ever? There's another pause, hesitation masquerading as thinking time. Then she lifts her head and makes a more careful attempt to skirt around the edges of the apprentices den. The air isn't so bitter tonight, a newleaf blessing she supposes, nor is the sky covered in clouds. That has been rare with the recent amount of showers they have had to endure, though when does ShadowClan not endure it? She waits for Buzzardpaw's approach before leading her outside of camp, resting not too far from it. Enough to be out of the warriors eyes is enough for her, the grass is cool when she flops against it.

"Do you still like the stars?" She asks finally, glancing to where her sister resides. They hadn't grown apart per say, she is still the first face Puddlepaw insists on seeing in the mornings and the last face in the evenings. That is superficial though, they lacked the depth they used to have. At least in her eyes, it churns her stomach uncomfortably and she seeks to put that to an end. A small breath escapes her as she blinks up at the twinkling lights. A small audible gurgle from her unsatisfied stomach can barely be heard, an ear flicks but she chooses to ignore it.

@BUZZARDPAW.

The song is loud and beautiful and I am so very afraid

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PUDDLEPAWBIOGRAPHYㅤ/ㅤTOYHOU.SE
: ̗̀➛ㅤfemale (she / her)ㅤ/ㅤunknown sexuality
: ̗̀➛ㅤ09 moons oldㅤ/ㅤages realistically, every 8th of the month
: ̗̀➛ㅤapprentice of ShadowClan for 03 moons
: ̗̀➛ㅤSister of Buzzardpawㅤ/ㅤApprentice of Wormwatcher
: ̗̀➛ㅤpenned by Juiceㅤ/ㅤmessage Ouijeejuice on discord for plots!

A slick rosette fawn tabby / rosette black tabby chimera. Quiet and calculating, struggles being able to describe or identify her own or others emotions. All opinions are IC as she can be quite harsh in her judgements.
 
I SAW A PHOTO, YOU LOOK JOYOUS

buzzardpaws ears immediately perk upwards at the sound of an all too familiar voice. his whiskers twitch as he grunts, furrowed brows as his eyes slowly open. he had been sleeping, but honestly, when has buzzardpaw ever told puddlepaw no? a yawn escape him as he moves a paw on his muzzle, trying to hold it in, class gently pressing against his skin as he kneads.

"yes."

she is now, at least. if her words hadn't woke her, the nudging would have. the mention of the stars has buzzardpaw humming. she nods, standing from her nest with a full stretch and yawn, rubbing her eyes as she watches the way puddlepaw hesitates. weird. she doesn't do that very often does she? whiskers twitch in thought before she simply follows after her.

puddlepaw stops on the gentle wind pushed grasses, and buzzardpaw joins her. they move to roll over, looking at the stars, with a few blinks and a solid nod.

"a...lways. the st...ar of f...amily is br...ight, now."

it points with a paw. maybe it shouldn't. it jades it's view to the cold hard truth of the unhealthy dynamic that it and it's sister held but why wouldn't care when it's all it's ever known? there was nothing wrong for buzzardpaw. it's knows it's place, and that is enough for it. it always has been.
 
She blinks up at the stars above, in truth Puddlepaw can't really see a difference to them. They just all looked the same to her, though her gaze still follows Buzzardpaw's paw. Hoping that it would hold some shining truth behind it, there is none though, they all still look the same. It's different to them though, right? "Is that the star of family?" It's a genuine curiosity, soft head craning to try and line up her eye sight with his paw. "Was it dim, before?" He had said that the star of family was bright, implying that it wasn't always like that. The grass is cool against her back, slick from a fresh rainfall, it's calming. Something she doesn't think she's been able to experience as of late given the residual stress from the clan.

"Can you tell me about them?" He always spoke of them, at least when they were kits. She found it improper to not have questioned Buzzardpaw about it, that's just how it's always been between them. There is the rare occasion where that uncaring nature cracks, curiosity seeping through and spilling out onto the ground with them. She knows that it's not StarClan, she doesn't ignore her littermates beliefs to that extent. "How has your training been?" The chimera looks to her littermate once more, noting the leaves and twigs that were buried deep within their long cinnamon tendrils of fur.

"We will be warriors soon." She hopes so anyways, would it be too ambitious to assume as such? Probably but the slick chimera didn't care. There's a spark in her, one that's determined to work hard and graduate but she's unsure if she would be able to do so without them beside her. Not that she would have a say in it, that's what this is. A planning, a risk assessment, to figure out if Buzzardpaw was going to dull to her own ambitions or if it was making strides alongside her.

The song is loud and beautiful and I am so very afraid

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PUDDLEPAWBIOGRAPHYㅤ/ㅤTOYHOU.SE
: ̗̀➛ㅤfemale (she / her)ㅤ/ㅤunknown sexuality
: ̗̀➛ㅤ10 moons oldㅤ/ㅤages realistically, every 8th of the month
: ̗̀➛ㅤapprentice of ShadowClan for 04 moons
: ̗̀➛ㅤSister of Buzzardpawㅤ/ㅤApprentice of Wormwatcher
: ̗̀➛ㅤpenned by Juiceㅤ/ㅤmessage Ouijeejuice on discord for plots!

A slick rosette fawn tabby / rosette black tabby chimera. Quiet and calculating, struggles being able to describe or identify her own or others emotions. All opinions are IC as she can be quite harsh in her judgements.