Had he expected the patrol to return at all? He does not know, and a part of him is ashamed to admit that. He has faith in the daylight warriors he'd chosen to go -- to an extent -- but Twolegs are not foxes, not badgers, not weasels. They are not so easily outwitted, not so easily driven away. He emerges from his den at the commotion in camp, ears pricked and tail lifted, awaiting a report.
The patrol leader himself emerges, and there's a strange air about those who filter after him. A cloud of emotions he cannot unravel. "The mission was a success- for the most part. I couldn't find Grizzlyridge or Sheepcurl anywhere, and Daisyflight... Well, I don't think she's comin' back, sir."
Blazestar shakes his head. "What?" He doesn't understand. "Why are they... they weren't there at all?"
Cats filter in, cats with strange and appalling scents. Metallic, laced with Twoleg and urine and the terror of cramped, unknown spaces. Kits swing from their scruffs. Eyes are dull with bleak expectations. Blazestar realizes immediately his patrol has freed more than just SkyClan warriors. He says nothing for the moment -- he sees skittishness in their postures. Unsure, uncertainty. He will address them, but --
The warriors he knows, he loves, he has loathed himself for being unable to protect -- they have returned. Quillstrike, Twitchbolt, Slate's bulky gray form, Butterflytuft and Snowpaw, and --
"Howlpaw?" The words leave him thinly, astonished. Is this an apparition, StarClan-sent? Is this their sign they approve of what SkyClan has done?
But she rushes to Fireflypaw and butts heads with him hard enough to concuss him. Blazestar's mouth runs dry, and when he moves, his paws are clumsy, limbs numb. "Howlpaw?!" He reaches her, lowers his muzzle to her fur. It has that same acrid, bitter scent as the other shelter cats, but even that stench cannot cloak the scent of his kits. The scent of Little Wolf.
"I thought... I thought you were dead," he says, his voice growing hoarse. "StarClan, I... I thought I wouldn't see you again until I..." He shudders, using a massive golden paw to tug her close to him. Tears dampen her fur, though he does not outwardly weep. "StarClan, thank you for returning her to me," he sobs, though it sounds dry and strange. Howlpaw. He has kept her after all.
Did Morningpaw keep you safe?
The shock of this return has drowned out the rest, but when new cries rise from his Clan, he has to lift his head. Weary. It's Figfeather, it's Greeneyes, and they've locked skulls with Snowpaw, with Butterflytuft.
Blazestar reluctantly pulls away from his daughter. "What?" Surely he hadn't heard that right?
But there's such strident grief in Snowpaw's golden gaze that Blazestar is convinced. In Twitchbolt's. In Quillstrike's. Blazestar's lower jaw trembles as he approaches them. "But, how? She can't... surely..."
Things go quiet for him, just for a moment. He looks at the group of mourning siblings, remembering a day long ago when he'd blundered into camp with a tortoiseshell kit ushered before him, Daisyflight heavily pregnant. Another day, the tortoiseshell dragging her newly birthed brood into camp on a lengthy fern.
The snap of her eyes meeting his as he names her deputy. "If you think that's best, Blazestar. With pleasure."
The forlorn darkness in her voice, barely a silhouette. "If I am to be mourned, let it be only once."
Blazestar chokes. "Daisy...?"
How is it he has thought she'd be here beside him for the rest of his life? How is it he forgot she's as fallible as any cat, as fragile?
But did StarClan accept you? Will you be waiting for me when I go?
His throat aches. He does not know what to say.
[ PENNED BY MARQUETTE ]