TAGS — The adrenaline still hasn't drained from Icepaw's small frame, long after their retreat. Her heart thrums painfully in her chest and her head still spins, although at this point it's more from anxiety than lingering dizziness from her several falls. Every little sound she hears sends a jolt through her — what if their enemies are in pursuit, looking to take back the stolen herbs? The sting of her wounds only heightens her nerves, worsened by the frigid air. But hers are absolutely nothing compared to some of the cats in her patrol, and for that she's immensely grateful. She clutches the catmint between her teeth as though it might be snatched away at any moment. It's a wonder she managed to keep her possession over it throughout the battle — another thing she's grateful for, even proud of. It's not much on account of her clumsy haste, but it's vastly better than nothing. She keeps telling herself that whenever she remembers just how little the entire patrol managed to nab.
It's a bit difficult to stay positive, though, throughout Nightmareface's lecture. She and her mentor quickly lag behind the patrols, with Icepaw listening and nodding along dutifully as they go over her performance in the battle.
I can't believe I tripped like that, she groans inwardly amid the scolding. If she hadn't been so careless in her mad sprint, she wouldn't have lost her footing and subsequently been pinned. What if she'd been mauled or killed? She'd thanked Nightmareface endlessly for rescuing her from that terrifying pinch once the patrol fled, but it wasn't enough to save her from being chewed out. But she's right, and Icepaw promises to be more careful and mindful in the future.
Every now and again her mind wanders to the apprentices in the larger patrol; how did they fare? They're probably worse off than Icepaw's own, given the bloody nature of their respective mission. But fortunately she can't allow herself to drift off, lost in her own thoughts, and miss anything her mentor is saying, so she doesn't dwell on it. Her anxiety would be through the roof if she did. She
is eager to get home, though, and touch base with them; her walk would border on jogging if she had the energy for it.
Relief washes over her at the sight of the camp's grassy walls, although it's chased away by unease the closer they draw to the entrance; she can hear shouting from within.
"I blame you, Sootstar!" Her heart skips a beat, wondering what's going on as she slips through the gap in the gorse and heather... and it flips at the sight of Sunsetbreeze's limp body on the ground.
Oh. She'd hardly known the warrior on a personal level, usually only mingling to the fullest extent with her fellow apprentices, but losing such a constant presence in her life is jarring and deeply saddening nonetheless — as is the realization that he might not be the only casualty. Pale eyes dart this way and that in search of any other corpses, but everyone else here is standing, thank StarClan. And that includes Rainpaw! She slinks over to her sister, quick and quiet to avoid drawing attention to herself amid the discord rippling through the crowd. Icepaw flashes her a smile, tinged with worry, and nuzzles her cheek, still gripping the catmint between her teeth. Firepaw only receives a nod of acknowledgment, but there's relief in her gaze all the same; annoying as she is, Icepaw obviously still cares about her safety.
She jumps when Dandelionwish's furious shout suddenly rises above everything else, quickly turning her wide-eyed gaze toward him. This pure anger is entirely unlike him, but then again he's not a cat she knows too well either beyond her occasional visit to his den; maybe this is something that's been stewing for a while, a boiling resentment. That's absolutely what it sounds like, with his talk of fragile pride and everything he blames her for. Her blood runs cold as she listens, glancing around to gauge the expressions of the onlooking crowd, but her primary focus lies on the matter at hand and it's not long before her gaze's path limits itself to Dandelionwish and Sootstar.
All of this for two sprigs of catmint... she echoes internally, and then does a mental double take.
Wait, two?! But Sunstride had also gotten ahold of some! Unless...?
Oh, stars, did he grab the wrong herb? They only have enough to treat two cats...? But maybe not even two — what if one dose isn't enough to help a single cat fully recover?
"You treat your Clan like possessions," she hears the tom snarl. How in the world can he so openly criticize their
leader? She leans lightly against Rainpaw beside her, vainly seeking comfort in her sister's touch.
That's not true, she thinks anxiously to herself. Sootstar's a tough leader, but WindClan is a tough Clan; she's earned her title and her keep, and it's clear that so many cats here respect her, Icepaw included. So what in the world could he be talking ab—
Sootstar's thundering voice cuts into her whirling thoughts, talking about... a dream?
An omen. Icepaw stares intently up at her, tail lashing restlessly as she processes StarClan's message. A corruption... that would explain why he went behind Sootstar's back and revealed WindClan's weakness to SkyClan, and now his explosive rage. But still... he's always seemed so kind... Her gaze drops to the ground, trying to make sense of it. But even if she can't, StarClan had spoken; surely if they're turning against a
medicine cat of all cats, it's not being done lightly.
Dandelionwish is demoted and Vulturemask is the new medicine cat. It's a jarringly sudden decision — she looks at him with shock and pity in her gaze; what a stressful position to be thrown into without warning! What if he's not willing? Even if he weren't, Icepaw wouldn't have the guts to deny the position if she were him, at least not right now. And what if Dandelionwish intentionally trains him poorly? Feeds him false knowledge to set him up for failure and sabotage WindClan?
Their new prisoner's parting words to Sootstar are ice cold, leaving her with a hollow feeling. She initially ignores his sharp demand for all injured cats to follow him into his den for treatment; she wants to properly speak with Rainpaw and check in on everyone else before heading in, and to be honest she's nervous about being around Dandelionwish after what just happened. Obviously she herself has nothing to do with his and Sootstar's quarrel, but his mood is obviously awful and she's afraid he might verbally lash out, or maybe even half-ass her treatment.
Sunstride's exclamation demands her attention, and his words are true, reassuring even. Maybe the raid wasn't as strategic as it should have been, given the Clan's troubling circumstances, but how can anyone blame Sootstar for this course of events? How could anyone have sat around and done nothing when their Clanmates are suffering?
A quiet sigh escapes her, and she looks up at Rainpaw and Firepaw after a few long moments of staring worriedly ahead, her face a mask of worry. After struggling to find her voice, all she can manage to mumble through her cargo is:
"...Wow."