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ORANGEPAW.

ORANGEPAW.

when we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Autumn Prompts [TC '24] Around the World [TC '24]
Jun 7, 2023
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-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ- "gentlestorm?"

orangepaw's voice is quiet, but it still can be heard. he twitched his tail back and forth as he sat up in his nest, looking around at everything in the den. he's gotten used to being in here. he watches when gentlestorm works, and the way cats come and go, and still he is here. his ears push backwards with a lash of his tail before he clears his throat to speak again, a soft smile on his face.

"are... you doing okay? you have to make sure everyone's okay all the time but someone's gotta make sure you're okay too so... are you? okay, that is."

he realizes how this sounds. the young cat twitches his whiskers as he tries to find a way to phrase this. older cats mostly wanna check up on the younger cats and he's sure somewhere that gentlestorm will tell him not to worry about him, but that won't make the worry go away. the clan was going through a lot, too much. and even with the most optimistic mindset, he knows that cats are suffering. hatred is a festering rot that consumes and he doesn't want to be apart of that. so he focuses on something he can do.

"i know I'm young, but I'm not stupid. i know some cats think so because I just don't stop smiling or trying to find the good in others but... I can tell when cats aren't okay. you don't have to be okay. but I want to help you try and feel okay if that's okay. my mom always said that my kindness was one of my best attributes and I intend to use it the way she wanted me to. and if that means to listen to you... I can do that. i can listen. you deserve someone to listen to you. someone right here. not just the stars."

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  • ORANGEPAW ✩ he/they, apprentice of thunderclan, 9 moons.
    ⭃ rather large polydactyl orange tabby with white markings, green eyes, and a broken left hind leg
    ⭃ npc x npc // no known family. mother is deceased
    ⭃ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted / / underline and tag when attacking
    ↛ not necessarily great in battle. semi easy to attack due to lack of expereince alone.
    ⭃ penned by scar ↛ @salemdraws on discord, feel free to dm for plots.

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.𓍊↟ DOWN THE BANK WHERE THE DOGS ROAM, POR LA CALLE QUE TE LLEVA A CURICÓ ↟𓍊.​
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‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚. — The voice of Orangepaw makes his ears twitch as he turns away from the shelf that held his herbs making sure that the crimson berries were hidden from certain individuals considering the deathberry in the squirrel incident, he has been paranoid ever since especially after the recent murders. This isn't the Thunderclan that he's familiar with and it makes him wish that he was far away in the mountains to avoid it all but he knows that itself is a selfish wish, he could never leave his family behind nor his friends. His gaze softens when he finally turns to face Orangepaw whose resting in his nest and it only takes a pawstep or two to arrive at the red tabby's side "Yes? What is it, glowbug?" He offers a warm smile towards the apprentice despite how exhaustion tugs at him and makes him want to sleep in his own nest for moons, he hadn't been able to sleep well due to everything happening around them.

What Orangepaw says next makes his eyebrows raise in surprise considering that a lot of cats didn't ask how he's feeling and normally, he would provide a shoulder for his clanmates to lean against him and utter their problems to him. A lot of cats relief on him and the clan is his kitten in a way, it was his duty to take care of them, soothe their wounds, and ensure their survival. "Are... you doing okay?" He blinks his dark eyes as he falls completely mute continuing to listen to Orangepaw's words closely as he always does, he enjoys listening to the young tom and his thoughts. He can feel his heart being squeezed by every word that tumbles out from his mouth and the last words that he says tug at his heart strings, his throat tightens with emotion. "You deserve someone to listen to you. Someone right here. Not just the stars."

He clears his throat and takes a moment to wonder if it's truly noticeable that he isn't doing the best or okay as Orangepaw states, Gentlestorm blinks away the stinging feeling in his eyes and speaks "No, you aren't stupid. You're very observant and a very caring individual... Your mother is right... It is one of your best attributes." He decides to settle down beside the apprentice making sure that he's careful of his injury and let's out a soft sigh as he tries to find the words to say, it's so much easier to listen to others than speaking about his owj feelings or troubles. It makes him want to let out a dry chuckle at the thought of it until he finally wills the words out from his throat "I've been trying to be okay... But it's been hard to do so... With all the murders and the attempt at Coltkit and Ivorypaw's lives... I think for a heartbeat... What if I hadn't been there? What if I was in Riverclan helping Moonbeam and I arrived to..."

The smile that rested on his lips falters and vanishes as he says in a lower voice "It would've been my fault if they had died... I brought the deathberries to camp." He had been the reason someone had plucked them out of his den where he had wanted to teach how deadly the crimson berries were and someone had broken his trust, they had taken it in an attempt to take the lives of kittens. It still makes his insides twist with unease and he can feel bile in his throat but swallows it down as he let's out a shaky breath "I'm just so... shocked that someone would try to do that. It's so vile." He shakes his head once more then focuses onto Orangepaw and he takes a deep breath, he should be listening to the apprentice and his worries not the other way around. Despite that, he finds himself appreciating Orangepaw and lightly presses his nose to his head only to pull away once more.

"Are you okay? Especially with all of this and your friends being sent away," He inquires gently knowing that it isn't easy to watch his own clanmates walk out of camp because of their own home being unsafe.
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    MEDICINE CAT IN TRAINING;
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿ FLESH WOUNDS
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿✿❀❀❀ INFECTIONS
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿✿❀❀❀ ACHES & PAINS
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿❀❀❀❀ ILLNESS
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿❀❀❀❀ BREATHING ISSUES
    — ✿❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀ TRAVELING HERBS
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿✿❀❀❀ BROKEN BONES
    — ✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿✿ KITTING
    — ❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀ POISONS
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    ✿ a longhaired blue sepia tom w/low white and brown eyes
    ✿ gentlestorm is a very warm individual and friendly to those who he meets, he's very social and willing to lend anyone a paw if they need it. he's very patient, caring, and it's usually rare to earn his ire.
    ✿ 58 moons old; ages the 27th every month
    ✿ demiromantic bisexual ; widowed mate of little wolf
    ✿ easy to befriend/interact with ; hard to anger/upset ; peaceful powerplay allowed
    ✿ "speech", thoughts, attacking
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-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ- he is glad that gentlestorm is actually willing to talk about this. he can't possibly be okay carrying so much weight on his shoulders– kind of like howlingstar. to be in such short high position, to have to make sure everyone was okay all the time... it was probably a lot. he does his best to shift his weight so that he isn't putting any on his leg, his tufted ears giving a few good flicks as he listened. his brows furrowed slightly before he gently shakes his head, a soft comforting smile remaining on his features.

"that's silly, gentlestorm. I think... that no matter what you did or didn't do, ivorypaw and coltkit would still be targeted. with or without the deathberries. whoever... hurt them wanted to hurt them by any means necessary because they come from twoleg nests."

he taps his tail against his nest.

"it isn't your fault. whoever hurt those kits are hurting too. they just need help. I hope... whoever did that gets some help."

it's naive to think so, but he can't help it. he doesn't want to hate anyone. he's incapable of it. he doesn't even understand how cats can be so filled with it that they're willing to hurt their own, espeicslly the youngest and most vulnerable of them. but that did not make it gentlestorm's fault. not at all. not even close.

"you're a very good cat. you help others all the time and I think... when I get out of here... I'm gonna do more of that. helping cats. that's the kind of warrior I wanna be. a strong one to protect those who can't yet protect themselves. like you do."

he is determined but he is... shocked when the conversation shifts to be about him. he... is he okay? no. not really. his smile seems to falter, lip beginning to quiver at the thought. his eyes sheen over with tears before he forces them shut, and offers an empty smile.

"it's for their safety. I'm sure they're okay and they will be back. I'm fine! really, honest, I am!"

if he is so fine, then why won't his heart stop beating so fast? he turns away so that gentlestorm can no longer see him, as his smile finally drops completely. he can't face him like that. he can't face anyone like that. he's supposed to be happy. he's supposed to make others happy. how can he do that if he's crying? when did he even start crying? he doesn't know. he pushes his tears away and laughs quietly.

"they are coming back, aren't they?"
‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎┌── NO USE LOOKING OUT ⋅❁⋅ ITS WITHIN THAT BRINGS THAT LONELY FEELING ──┐‎

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