- Apr 3, 2024
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⊱⊰ He’s a month older, one of the queens says. Three entire months Hopekit has spent stumbling through his life, sleeping and playing and wondering what good parents were like.
He understands that he never had a chance to meet his father. Batwing, as brave and heroic as he’d been, was long gone by the time he and Coalkit came into the world. Their father had sacrificed himself and met his end at the bottom of a ravine, all for the sake of his clanmates—for everyone, including Hopekit and Coalkit and their mother. Batwing’s fate was sealed before Hopekit even existed, and in a way, that makes it easier to come to terms with the knowledge that his father is dead. But Leopardtongue… she had a chance. She could have lived, couldn’t she? If Hopekit hadn’t killed her? She could have smiled at them both, and the sunlight would have reflected in the warm golden eyes that Roeflame had told him about. But now she can’t, because… because…
He should be celebrating the day that he was born three months ago, excitedly cheering because he’s one month closer to being an apprentice. But instead, Hopekit freezes in place, struck with the thought that his mother has been dead for three months now. Another kit crashes into him when he stops in the middle of their running path, but the little tom hardly feels it. It feels as though a yawning chasm has opened up beneath him, and he’s clinging to the edge by only a claw. He doesn’t know what to do, but he doesn’t want to play anymore. "I don’t… feel good," he says, and it’s an excuse. An excuse to get away from the other kids, from their game—from the eyes. The clanmates who watch, who know.
Pale paws carry him to the nursery’s entrance, but his legs tremble so much that the kit trips. He stumbles first, and then falls, landing hard on his chest and smacking his chin against the ground. At first he feels nothing, and then pain explodes quickly from the lower half of his face. Hopekit is silent for a moment before the sniffling begins, and quiet tears begin to track their way down his face. As if this can’t get any worse… he knows it’s immature and kitlike to cry, but everything feels wrong and bad, and Hopekit doesn’t know how to fix it. He’s not a warrior, he’s just a kit.
He understands that he never had a chance to meet his father. Batwing, as brave and heroic as he’d been, was long gone by the time he and Coalkit came into the world. Their father had sacrificed himself and met his end at the bottom of a ravine, all for the sake of his clanmates—for everyone, including Hopekit and Coalkit and their mother. Batwing’s fate was sealed before Hopekit even existed, and in a way, that makes it easier to come to terms with the knowledge that his father is dead. But Leopardtongue… she had a chance. She could have lived, couldn’t she? If Hopekit hadn’t killed her? She could have smiled at them both, and the sunlight would have reflected in the warm golden eyes that Roeflame had told him about. But now she can’t, because… because…
He should be celebrating the day that he was born three months ago, excitedly cheering because he’s one month closer to being an apprentice. But instead, Hopekit freezes in place, struck with the thought that his mother has been dead for three months now. Another kit crashes into him when he stops in the middle of their running path, but the little tom hardly feels it. It feels as though a yawning chasm has opened up beneath him, and he’s clinging to the edge by only a claw. He doesn’t know what to do, but he doesn’t want to play anymore. "I don’t… feel good," he says, and it’s an excuse. An excuse to get away from the other kids, from their game—from the eyes. The clanmates who watch, who know.
Pale paws carry him to the nursery’s entrance, but his legs tremble so much that the kit trips. He stumbles first, and then falls, landing hard on his chest and smacking his chin against the ground. At first he feels nothing, and then pain explodes quickly from the lower half of his face. Hopekit is silent for a moment before the sniffling begins, and quiet tears begin to track their way down his face. As if this can’t get any worse… he knows it’s immature and kitlike to cry, but everything feels wrong and bad, and Hopekit doesn’t know how to fix it. He’s not a warrior, he’s just a kit.
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⊱ skinny, thick-furred lilac tom with deep copper eyes. soft-spoken and sleepy, but can be a bit of a grouch.
⊱ son ofbatwingandleopardtongue; brother to bravepaw, hazepaw, cardinalpaw, coalkit
⊱ peaceful and healing powerplay permitted
⊱ penned by foxlore